@Amanda Roa https://cardsofyourdestiny.com/

@Luke Archer My cards were great, too ☺️

@Luke Archer I made the post on the General Discussion wall, and they either felt on point or great to continue to integrate :)

Happy to chat! Send me a DM @Amanda Roa

I’m so sorry we were all quiet yesterday after ceremony. I know for me personally, that kind of silence can sometimes leave a feeling of emptiness after giving so much. I want to start by sharing that I’ve been on a master plant dieta and a very intensive detox for the past three weeks. During that time, I intentionally did not integrate Mary, as I was focused on deeply cleansing and flushing my organs. I made the conscious decision to re-introduce cannabis within our group ceremony as my first time after this period of abstinence. I trust you both, and this container, that deeply. Another important piece, especially given our theme of somatic safety, is that over the weekend I witnessed someone I admired and respected in my personal life experience a complete nervous system collapse in my presence. Old, unprocessed trauma surfaced as intense anxiety, and it became clear that my presence was unintentionally activating something very deep for them. As much as I tried to understand and offer support, it came out of left field and immediately activated my caretaker reflex. Their system, however, was in such a freeze response that they physically could not receive any support from me. I watched them unravel into a very young, inner-child state right before my eyes….and I couldn’t help. Eventually, their flight response took over, which left a very shocking and painful impact on me. As the hours passed and I was able to reconcile that this truly wasn’t about me, but about their own unintegrated material, I found peace in my heart. I also consciously released myself from the caretaker role I’ve defaulted to for much of my life. This crisis for me was a powerful reminder of how essential it is to proactively tend to ALL of our bodies- the physical, spiritual, sexual, emotional, and mental. When one body is neglected or suppressed out of fear of entering the darkness, life will eventually present an experience or a person that brings or triggers that unintegrated part to the surface. At that point, the nervous system no longer has the capacity to keep ignoring it.

@Christopher August Of course and thank you 🙏🏽

Something similar happened to me in a self-mushroom journey after balling my eyes out. I stared into the mirror with an inflamed face seeing the faces of my ancestors. My mother, uncle, aunts, and down the line..