Walking Through The Desert
Last week, I spent two days walking through the desert trails in Moab, Utah. It was a powerful experience. It’s true what they say: the desert is hot and dry. But when you look for it, the desert is full of light. Walking through the desert was illuminating. I walked through the desert with a beautiful woman with beautiful intentions. I didn’t walk alone. This was new to me. I’ve been walking through the desert alone for the past five years. Not the desert of Moab, I’ve been walking through the desert of my mind. Maybe you can relate... Five years ago, my life started crumbling. My successful gym business started failing. Caring more about financial success, I lost sight of my mission. My marriage was falling apart I cared more about meeting my needs than showing up as my best self. I relapsed and lied about it. I used food to soothe and it showed. Wanting to feel good - or at least feel better - I kept searching outside myself. Wanting validation that I was good enough - my motivation was to prove myself. If I could prove my worthiness, life would get better. The harder I tried to prove myself - the further I fell. Business closed Marriage ended Living alone Savings gone Body bloated My journey through the desert began five years ago. I thought my search was for the instant path to financial health and happiness. I was muddling through the desert of my mind, looking for the wrong things. Still haven’t found the path to proving myself. Walking through the desert to find myself. I did find the path to knowing myself. To Love myself - I had to know myself. To heal - I had to accept my pain. Had to feel my pain. Even though we feel stressed and overwhelmed, putting on a happy face for the rest of the world to see severely impacts our emotional and physical health. We are dripping “fight-or-flight” chemicals into our bloodstream all day. This impacts hormones, cellular health, mood, metabolism, and energy, eventually leading to chronic disease. If you are struggling with chronic pain, disease, depression, or obesity, the solution is not outside yourself. You already have everything you need to heal and live your healthiest life.