Jim: Thank you for this experience. After reading my report several times, there are things that are beginning to make sense now. Previous to this experience, I was still questioning whether or not I had chosen the right path. After reading my snapshot and assessment, now I KNOW I am on the right path. The process of "going deeper" was more deep than any therapist would of gone. Thanks again, and now logging in for Day 6!

My lowest Harmony dimension: experiencing brain fog Wind-down pattern I noticed: it’s not that easy for me to wind down. Activities or tasks that I crave to do after I am away from work, take hold of me. I am pretty good about avoiding caffeine, but my brain craves other activities other than “work”. Morning pattern I noticed: I do use my phone as my alarm. I was already drinking water to get my meds down. But I take my shower at night so I can go to bed clean, so I have yet to take one in the morning to try to close it with cold water. I decided to change my open loop to making my bed - a habit I got out of since getting divorced. Closing that open loop made me feel like I got something done so early in the day. What surprised me: If I am so tired after work, how much energy I must use after I am home and have eaten dinner because I crave other activity other than work, thus, making it hard to wind down.

The mirror principle just clicked for me. I always thought my cluttered apartment was a time-management problem, but it turns out the "nothing has changed" feeling I get staring at unfinished tasks is the exact same one underneath "I'm not worthy" when my kids are too busy for me. Same wound, two different rooms. I crave more structure in my life which includes time that is structured to see my adult children.

The belief that's been holding me back most: "#why try? Rejection hurts! Where it came from: failing to perform or being rejected for a job. My new code: “not trying guarantees failure" My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who wants to succeed and therefore, failure is not an option. Debugging in progress...

Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that my perfectionism isn't who I am - it's a mask I built after one hard semester convinced me I was "lazy or stupid." Turns out the competitive kid who loved being part of a winning team never wanted to be flawless. She just wanted to belong.