Lately, I’ve been feeling something I don’t think we talk about enough as founders… An identity crisis. Not in a dramatic, everything-is-falling-apart kind of way… More like, “Wait… what am I actually building right now?” And if I’m being real with you—The Founder's Guild is going through that with me. Who am I as a solo leader? What is this community without my co-founder? I think there’s this expectation that once you “pick a path,” you’re supposed to just lock in and go. But that’s not actually how it works. Growth changes you. And when you change… your business has to change, too. Steve Jobs got kicked out of Apple. The company HE started. And during that time, he went through a massive identity shift. He started NeXT. He invested in Pixar. He refined his taste, his philosophy, his leadership. And when he came back to Apple— He didn’t just “execute better.” He built a completely different company than before. Elon Musk went from PayPal → rockets → electric cars → AI. Even Oprah Winfrey shifted from news anchor → talk show host → network owner → spiritual teacher. So maybe the identity crisis isn’t a bug… Maybe it’s a signal. A signal that: - You’re outgrowing your current container - Your vision is expanding faster than your structure - You’re being asked to get more honest about what you actually want For me right now, that looks like: Letting go of what I think this should be Getting real about what actually feels aligned And being willing to rebuild parts of this from a deeper place Even if it’s messy. Even if it’s unclear. Even if I don't come across as the "perfect community leader who has it all together all the time." And I have a feeling I’m not the only one. If you’re building something—especially with ADHD—you probably feel this too sometimes. That tension between wanting clarity and constantly evolving. So instead of pretending I have it all figured out… I’m choosing to share this with you. Because this community isn’t about perfection. It NEVER was.

Hey there you beautiful amazing goblins. I wanted to express that, first, I have no words for how much I have learned so far in my time here. From the founders of this soace and from you, the members. I love you all and I have deeply cherished having the honor of modding this space for @Bill Widmer and @Rex Loyer and helping you all to build something of the connections which I have seen blossom. You all have helped me blossom in ways I cannot even begin to express and describe, as well... And because of that blossoming, I have decided to step down from moderating and just be a community dweller while I focus on my own business and personal growth alongside you.....present much more in the way I was in my early days here 🌿 The future is bright, for all of you. And these men both have some amazing things in store. God, I cannot wait to see all the ways this space and everyone who is a part of it, continue to grow and develop throughout this next year and beyond. As for me, I will be digging deeper into my own studies so that I can be a better advocate, care providerr, and teacher within my own lane. You'll be seeing more reflections from me in the future. And im still cheering each and every one of you on every day, even if I'll sometimes be more quiet while doing so 💖

🌿 Note to Self Dear One, You’ve spent years learning how to be your own best friend — though for a long time, you confused that with being your own parent. When people said “parent yourself,” you modeled the only parenting you knew. You pushed yourself harder. You demanded more. You used discipline as devotion because it was the only language available. And yes, it kept you going. Yes, it reminded you of your resilience. Yes, it proved that the mind can help the body overcome impossible things. But it wasn’t supportive. It wasn’t validating. It bypassed your very real needs. You overrode yourself more times than you want to admit. Years of that pattern put your system into overdrive. Avoiding vulnerability meant no one could help — not because they didn’t care, but because they couldn’t possibly know. You weren’t afraid of rejection. You knew you were loved. You were carrying a story: “This is my responsibility. It will land heavy. It will hurt people to hear it.” And that wasn’t entirely wrong. But you were missing something crucial. People want to help. People who care want to hold the weight for a moment so you can breathe. And here’s the part you didn’t understand until much later: You didn’t know how to be your own best friend until you had adult women friends who showed you how. They modeled gentleness without collapse. They modeled boundaries without punishment. They modeled honesty without fear. They modeled care that didn’t require self‑erasure. They taught you the difference between pushing yourself and supporting yourself. Between self‑discipline and self‑devotion. Between survival and belonging. They taught you that friendship — real friendship — is a form of wisdom. Yes, sharing trauma can stir emotions in others. Yes, partners and family aren’t always the right people to hold the details. Some truths are hard to say — and eventually hard to hear. So when is it appropriate to speak? How do you talk about the things that shaped you? Therapy is one option — a trained witness with enough distance to hold the truth without collapsing under it. But therapy is expensive, inaccessible for millions, and not the only path.

Ok... not that I fully believe it... But I've noticed a pattern. When I'm giving if a lot of energy... positive or negative charge didn't matter... I just find additional difficulty with anything electronic. Lights, phone signals, TV glitches, computer glitches... What gives?! 😅 And maybe it just me... but i suspect... this happens to a lot of us.... Comment if you ever experience wierd energy transference to electrical devices.

I went to the gym and let it become a time vortex. I got consumed into my workout and let things slip through the cracks. Ironically, the thing that supported me physically ended up costing me momentum. Still, I’m calling this a successful failure. YAAAY Because I caught myself and I reflected, I see the thing that gets to change and will thrive in a new version of myself tomorrow. The lesson: When I don’t create a container around something I enjoy, I tend to let it expand until the rest of my day gets squeezed out. Awareness unlocked. And the experiment for tomorrow is simple: Structure the day in a way that protects energy and prevents overwhelm. Earlier bedtime tonight + Setting clear containers tomorrow = moving with intention. Growth sometimes looks like productivity. Other times it looks like catching the pattern in the act. 🎯