You can't lose your salvation. It's literally impossible. The story of Jacob and Esau, Judah and Tamar, the Israelites and Gibeonites. All the same story. Someone wearing the clothing of someone else to change their identity and take the blessing of someone that can't be taken back. These also aren't the only example. It's a pattern that repeats through the entire Bible. Clothing represents the spirit. When the ancient Israelites escaped Egypt, the clothing they took was passed down through generations, lasted through the desert. and after entering the Promised Land. When the Bible says, "The one who endures to the end will be saved" it's not talking about you. It's talking about the Holy Spirit, the "clothing" you wear, enduring till the end. When Jesus says, "Good job good and faithful spirit," He's not talking about you. He's talking about Himself. He's the only good and faithful servant. You're just "wearing" the Holy Spirit to hide your identity. This is also what Noah's Ark is about. In the story of Joseph, the colored garments represent the spirit. When Jesus says on the cross, "Father, into your hands I commit my spirit", His "clothing"/Spirit was sent back to the Father, who descended down into Sheol in sorrow. So, technically, the "soul" of Jesus is the Father. The Holy Spirit enters you. And where does your spirit go? Into Jesus to resurrect with Him. Noah's Ark kept the wrath of God from getting in. Jesus had the wrath of God (water) poured out of Him after He was pierced with a spear so we could enter. You literally become the holes in His hands. This is what the laws about slavery in the Old Testament are about. Jesus had Himself "pierced" into "slavery" for us. This shows that the love of God is deeper than we could possibly imagine. If you can't lose your salvation, then what's the price for sinning after getting saved? Self hatred. Negative self image. Negative self esteem. If you watch p*rn, you know what would be the best thing you can do afterwards?

I feel like the only way to remove my phone addiction is if I don't have a phone and get a flip phone. I've tried a lot of things to stop, but I still can't stop looking at soccer content, especially with the World Cup right now. I love soccer, but I can see it becoming an Idol. I think it is already an idol. I have had months or weeks of being in control, but as you know, depending on the will never works. I have also tried prayer many times, but I just cannot seem to be delivered. I don't get it, for me, some sins are just easy to hate and not do, but some are just hard to ignore, like entertainment, like soccer. This is even harder because I grew up with soccer and Joga Bonito videos.

In my life I want to serve God, but I find myself tripping over this one question over and over. What is my purpose? I know He has a purpose set out for me, but I have no idea how to find it or figure out what my calling is. How can I do this?