@Sami Younis Increase your tawbah to Allah. And set an alarm on your phone to go off every hour to remind you to do your thikr. And do your best to do your 5 daily prayers in the Masjid. If that's a struggle try to do all your 5 daily prayers at the prescribed times.

And Rumzi I have been asking Christians this. Maybe you can see if you can get some of those clowns who are always acting like Islam is false and the Bible is the truth to answer this question. Why did Joseph choose to believe Mary fornicated if the verse in Isaiah is so clear about a virgin who would give birth? I mean according to the Bible Joseph was from the lineage of David so if the Messiah is supposed to be from the lineage of David then the verse in Isaiah would be also pertaining to Joseph but yet he was clueless about a virgin to be with child? Like when he found out Mary was pregnant and a virgin why did he choose to believe she had committed fornication? Like how many virgins did he think he would come across to be pregnant?

Asalamualakum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatahu. I'm from America in New Jersey.