The work of freeing yourself takes courage. I'm not going to lie to you. It takes courage, it is scary, it can feel like you’re pushing that big Sisyphus rock up the hill. But when you allow yourself the opportunity to live into and lean into Who You Are, a whole new world will open up. One thing I struggled with at the beginning of this conference in New Mexico on the first day I attended was the wound of belonging. That's a wound I have worked on healing for a long time and it took a lot of work to really get to that place where I saw that one of the major unhealed wounds for me was belonging. So when I'm at this conference and I'm watching these speakers who are Ph.d's in psychology Ph.d's in Behavioral Health, MD's. All these white collar professionals and all of a sudden I felt less than. And I was aware of it right away. I was aware of it right away because of the tools that we have and I was surprised and asked myself why is this coming up? And it's coming up because that's how our nervous system - that protection mechanism works. No matter how much healing we've done there's always that little piece hanging around that thinks that you still need some kind of protection. So I was able to see it for what it is, see it as a difficult dark part but not reject it, to own it, to honor it, to thank it and then release it. But for about 20 minutes there when I was sitting in that lecture hall that old wound was there right in my face But had I not chosen to do the hard work of healing and to practice with the tools that we have available for grounding, for energetic boundaries, for our protection, how to release what needs to be released and being aware of what's mine and what's not mine…. all of these tools come into play and so I experienced this for about 20 minutes instead of two or three days I share this with you so you know that I struggle just as you do. Those old wounds pop up and want to trip you up. I know. I get it and I experienced it just the other day.

It's time for some hard truths. Too many people have spent their lives making themselves smaller. I used to be one of those people. I used to say "I'm sorry" for all manner of things. For feeling too much. For expressing my views too loudly. For being right! And then apologizing for that! I never forget one time a friend and coworker told me - Anthony - Stop Apologizing! At the time I didn't really understand what I was doing. It wasn't until a few really good healing sessions with someone I trusted that I could see the patterns and behaviors I was glued to without being conscious of it. That's what happens when you doubt yourself - all the time. It's unspoken because it's ingrained so deeply into your being that you can't see it. That's how you show up because you fear any expression of the real you will be unbearable -- for you! I spent decades making myself smaller so other people could be more comfortable. And it worked. For a while. Until it didn’t. Until I woke up one day and realized I had gotten so good at being small that I didn’t know who I actually was anymore. That's a dangerous place to be because the options are - hide away for good and stay small, unseen, unknown, filled with regret, depression and self loathing OR Take action, any action that moves me to a new place however scary, however unsettling or challenging it might be. Why am I sharing this with you? Because our time to move and take action - any action however scary and unsettling is NOW. RIGHT NOW. Those healing gifts are waiting for you to come home to yourself. The people who need you and you've yet to meet are out there waiting for you. They can't be helped by anyone else but you. The new work I talked about is coming this month and it's here to help you move and take action. I'll be opening a wait list for the "Unbound" healing series that will free you to be yourself and return you to you. Comment below if any of this speaks to you. If you think you're ready and have questions, ask them.

I always teach about how we need training and discipline in our healing practices. There is a good reason for that focus. Too many are walking around like they're broken. That is not the case. All that's missing is the right training. Being untrained means no one ever showed you how to work with what you already have. So you go alone to the books, the videos, the crystals, the breathwork — and you still feel like you're absorbing everyone else's pain, carrying weight that isn't yours. You don't need more information. Instead you need practice. Lots of it. I speak from years of experience wandering around lost and looking. I was searching for something and it took a long time to find it. But when I did I knew I was home. I was home with myself. Reconnecting and growing for myself and with a purpose. That journey of self love and return to self is amazing. It is challenging. It is fucking scary! You will cry. You will yell. You will want to hide again. But here you've got tools to work with that guide you with love and compassion as you learn to be with yourself and love yourself all over again. Use the tools. Ask for help. Walk together. 🩵

I am in the process of re-recording the materials for the Sacred Healing Journey - formerly the Healers Challenge. And as I was recording and making notes - I looked at the transcript and knew I had to post this here. Remember, our work is not vague intention. Our work is something real. Never forget that. If you're here, something brought you. And I want you to get honest with yourself right now about what that something is. Because it's usually not the logical part of you that shows up for work like this. The logical part of you has lots of reasons to stay exactly where it is. Stay comfortable, stay with what I already know, don't rock the boat. It's the other part — the part that has been quietly insisting for years that there is something here worth paying attention to — that found this place at this time. Our work is simple. But simple isn't the same as easy. That seems to be a universal law! We're starting with one act: acknowledgment. An act of recognition and awareness. Not proof. Not certainty. Not a fully formed identity as a healer. Just this ➡️ I acknowledge that a healing gift exists within me. That's the whole practice. And it will do more than it sounds like it will. There is one thing I've learned from walking this path for years — and from walking it with hundreds of people who came to this work confused, skeptical, burned out, or afraid: The gifts that go unnamed go undeveloped. So if you haven't done this - write it down today. In your own handwriting. The declaration that's in the training video --"Today I acknowledge that I carry a healing gift." Let it feel awkward if it feels awkward. Let it feel presumptuous if it feels presumptuous. Write it anyway. Then answer the three questions: When did I first sense this? What has made me doubt it? What would change if I finally believed it was real? Post in the comments when you're done. Not because you have to perform anything. Because naming it in community accelerates it in a way that naming it alone cannot.

I'm stating this frankly because after the events I experienced last week, I realized the damage that can happen when things are left unsaid, or left unhealed. Things fester and that never ends well. In the commitment to healing, I'm sharing more openly about my healing journey and the wound that broke me. It really cracked open many years ago. It was a slow cracking open, but it did and I was in a new world after that. So, if you just woke up to something bigger and you have no idea where to start, then you are here in the right place because we walk together. Not with some specific idea of where we might end up, but walking the path together in awe of life, in the wonder that curiosity can reveal, and connected to the power that our relationship with spirit can provide. Whatever it was -- a breakup. a job loss. a hard burnout that finally broke you open. Whatever cracked you open — it wasn't an accident. But we all know the avenues of healing are confusing, overwhelming, and full of wrong turns. I'm committed to provide a grounded starting point, real tools, and practices that won't let you get lost. You don't need to figure it out alone. And I need these tools just as much as you do. Here's a Youtube video I posted today about my healing journey after the wound broke me. https://youtu.be/OMXt62iYx0Q?views Please comment and share what you need to share.