I surrendered into letting go of hiding, Identify and trauma and I remember feeling a deep sadness and pain in my heart coming out of my body. When I realized I was choosing to hold on because I got comfortable in the discomfort I let go of the ropes that was hurting me deeply. It felt like a thorny vines coming out of my heart catching on fire. Who am I when I am not people pleasing or the trauma? The truth is I am love and peace. My body is still in this between stage for letting go of learned conditioning to make room for the truth and embodying it. Little by little I know I will get there. I painted my visions and pain of what I was going through during that time. At the time I felt a lot of shame to share these drawlings but now I feel honored to be seen. Life is not always beautiful thats why its important to accept and witness the "ugly" in order to give it more love. The world needs more love on the parts thats has fear surrounding it. The story behind the paints and drawling. Letting go of fear with love. The tree - I was dealing with numbness in my right side of my body over 2 years and I remember I couldn't think straight, speak my truth, and I was crying for help because I was in pain. I surrender into the pain and felt like a tree growing out of my head and using the pain as nutrient to grow into something beautiful and free. In a way it was like a rebirth from that chapter of my life. Underwater- I surrendered deeper and felt like i couldn't breath and stuff coming out of my heart. A chain pulling me deeper into the sea of emotion. The three little fishes (my angels) telling me I will be okay keep going they are here with reminding me I am safe and ready to go deeper. In the Dark- It felt like a thick foggy mud that was hard to see what was happening. I was scared and in pain but I trusted and a bright light came and purified the fog. I can now see the truth. Breaking free- This is when i saw my past self, the one who stay quiet and still to stay safe the one who was calling me to help because it was too much. I gave soooo much love to her, listened and gave her a voice again. I thanked her for keeping me safe the best she knew how to and promise I will keep us safe from now on. I watch her break through the chain on her own and be free! She screams I AM LOVE and the light shines brightly through as peace within my heart.

Last night, I noticed a pattern of thoughts that kept me up till 3 am. It was a feeling that I needed to do more and rest was not allowed right now. I realized it was a learned response from childhood. In order to feel safe I felt I needed to keep my mother “happy”. One of the ways was by acts of service like making fancy Vietnamese coffee for her at 1am because she has work at 4 am even though it’s a school day it was the only time I can really spend with her. I learned at a young age if I do things that help others life even though it’s self sacrifice that’s when I am worthy to receive love and there will be peace that’s what my youthful brain thought. Now I am learning that i can be loved by just being me and I don’t have to sacrifice myself or do anything for others. I am worthy of unconditional love and respect because I am a human being and that’s enough to receive love. I also accept my emotions the sadness, anger and shame because it’s all telling me where I need more love in my life and I can give that to myself. I am so grateful for this journey and witnessing my soul in this human condition I can feel pain and happiness. It’s all beautiful and sad at the same time but feelings only last for a moment and I choose to go back to my truth and that the peace I can feel in my body. Then I was able to relax and go to sleep. If you’re on a journey of healing and reclaiming yourself you’re not alone. We are beautiful and we are safe to be our truest self . With love and light, Stephanie P.s this video was talk about reclaiming your inner worth and how this pattern was learned. https://youtu.be/-s3XWqpv2tQ?si=rzUCT0Xmw_Y2vhg2

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