Wow, these last few replies really touched a cord in me: Can I really say “Okie dokie” and send my teachers away when they don’t comply with my vibration, or the love of Mother Mary? Or do I have to settle with the fact that my own vibes are reflected back by my teachers? Because, truthfully, most of them do come with a certain amount of sobering sarcasm in their gift bags… at least those, who have taken on form in some way or another. And the formless teachings are beyond that, which we call “Love” or “Saint” … They are just an all encompassing sound and light current of an omnipresence, making me and my preferences disappear. So I can‘t even call it by name, or call it in, at my disposal. So yes, this has been a very long, deep down question within me, filled with longing for more… and returning again and again with the, sometimes a bit sarcastic, response: “Why do I long for more? Who is that, calling itself “I”? And, how can it feel so separate from the rest of the universal presence, that it has to ask to be rejoined again?🤨 So, thanks for touching that cord in me… I will ponder the sound it makes within me over the next few days🙏