Meditation is the key to connecting to your true self, and learning how to reprogram your mind to achieve your goals.

No matter what you think about anything all you have to do is be you. I often worry my posts may be too all over the place or not make sense or that they’re not good enough in some sort of way. But the point is I wrote all this stuff without thinking about it, I’m not overthinking right now and I’m not allowing the worry to take place in my mind. Once I stop writing however, that’s when the voice comes in trying to get me to overthink it in any which way I can. For so long in my life I’d just not do stuff because I overthink it and then create some reasons not to… but all you have to do is be authentically you. You can’t copy others as to how to act and it be ‘correct’ because you’ll never be who YOU truly are… you just need to do what you like doing and do it all without thinking about it. Like right now I just got the thought and impulse to sort of come here and write a post like this, I didn’t really know where I wanted it to go but here we are. And normally I’d sit and overthink that, end up not doing it and then scrolling on my phone. By following the thought processes outlined in my soon to be available book you can begin to recognise the thoughts that you actually want to follow and you can snap out of overthinking and choose to do it, like I am doing right now. I overthought it a bit, then I decided no actually, I won’t let the thought that I shouldn’t do this over rule me. I will type what I type and so be it. And that’s what being authentically you is. This is my journey to being authentically me, which is to try and help people… cos that’s who I am and this is the way i want to be so I’m going to do it.

*I apologize if I’ve repeated anything too much I have adhd and this is just authentic me explaining my thoughts the best I can, prepare you’re in for a long post. I have studied my mind since I can remember, and after my studies I feel I’m finally at the point to be a teacher. This is my interest in life and this is what I love doing and the place I feel most at home in my mind, and I’d ultimately love if my findings and theories could help others in life. It’s who I’ve decided to be and what I’m trying to do and the way I want to live my life now that I’ve learnt I can be whoever I want to be. I have adhd diagnosed and strongly believe I’m autistic too but never bothered to try and get it diagnosed, I’ve basically always known I’m a bit off and funny or whatever and don’t get life and it’s been extremely difficult… and that’s why I’ve been studying it my entire life…it’s why I have adhd and mask so much… because I’ve never understood life so all I’ve ever done is study it and all I’ve ever known to do is mimic it. I have had profound thoughts about life and never known what it’s meant to be about… so I’ve always been studying it. And then it clicked, that’s exactly the meaning of life and what it’s about… there is nothing more to discover other than I love thinking about stuff like this and all along I’ve just wanted the way I think to be heard by others because I believe it can make people feel better and that’s who I am, I want everyone to just feel better. I want people to feel safe and happy and live a life of wonder and I know how. It’s by doing exactly what I’m doing now, following what your actual passion is… this is my first sort of big post, but I have written a book, planned courses, am making social media content etc and once I’m ready with it all that’s going to be my life, I’m going to show autistic and adhd people that we can live an absolute dream life, if they’ll just listen and follow my guidance they can live a completely fulfilled life. I will be charging money for them and I’ll be doing it without feeling bad (something I would always do in the past that I have learnt I need to get over). I learnt that if I do want to solely focus on making my content that I think can help people then it’s my content that I need to monetise in some sort of way. This is my art form that I’ve learnt I want to distribute to the world, and so I need to charge for it. Much like someone who owns a lawnmower shop has a passion to sell good lawnmowers to people. I needed to learn that I need to forgive myself that I need to charge money for something I’d rather not. I simply can’t do it because at the same time as wanting to teach like this I don’t want to become a homeless monk because I also want to participate a bit in the real world… I’m not greedy, I don’t want any particular amount of money but I enjoy helping people, I’d love to earn all the money in the world so I can help as many people can. But so long as I can make enough doing what I love to live a comfortable life… be able to help people… have a roof over my head for me and my daughter… maybe a couple motorbikes as I like off road stuff and on road. But y’know what I mean? I don’t want a lot, I just want enough to be able to keep doing what I love. I don’t force anyone to think the way I do, anyone is allowed to pass any judgement they want on my beliefs, and are allowed formulate their own opinions on life too… I just want to help where I personally believe I can.

Words are a difficult thing, we all use them to describe our ideas and get things across to others. But, each of us is an individual person who could take a different meaning from words... especially online in text form like this. You have no idea what my emphasis is and are just reading letters put in a certain order. Even in real life the true meaning that YOU feel is not always reciprocated from those you are speaking to. This is why communication between people can often break down and lead to a different pathway than expected. Understanding what someone means needs more than just words, it needs an almost magical understanding of what humans really are. Almost all people who have a spiritual viewpoint understand each other without needing to say or do anything... they simply... understand. This is why spirituality is an extremely good path to follow... it can give you the complete understanding of life and anything that anyone ever says. This is just me, having an opinion... I could be correct, I could be incorrect. I have no idea what so ever.

Every single life you encounter, whether it be a human a cat or a snail... are all something experiencing life for the first time. Be Kind.