Reflecting on your words... I want a relationship. I want to be complemented rather than completed, which is a different energy. And I do want to receive.. the thing is I don't give with the goal of receiving something back, but I do look for that reciprocity in a relationship. I look for balance as well because I believe it is very important during the process of two people growing on their own but together at the same time.

@Joi Rychelle 🌸😊

Values: Authenticity Accountability Honesty Loyalty Assertiveness/Determination Companionship Respect Honor Purpose driven Integrity Humility Vulnerability Commitment Freedom Playfulness Justice Standards: Intellectual Stimulating Spiritual Aware Financial Independent/Resolved Effort reciprocation Being supportive in my creations/projects/ideas/inspirations Responsible Sense of humor Being kind and polite Taking initiative Being spontaneous and let me be spontaneous Emotional attuned Gentleman's courtesy Knowing what prioritize Being organized Protective Care for my children's well-being Able to take the lead when necessary Being able to 'call me out' when I am mistaken or not seeing something clearly Healthy lifestyle in all aspects (sleep, contact with nature, nutrition, content consumption, social relationships, environments - even though right now I am totally not living up to my own standards due to life circumstances and for reasons that surpasses my ability to change them) Boundary: No second chances on lies Punctuality Healthy communication (direct, open, kind and clear) Self-care time Zero tolerance for drama or any type of mental or emotional games Respect for my schedules, routines and preferences

Compassion is in all of 3 categories. I believe in compassion, I want and need my partner to be compassionate and it is definitely a boundary that I don't allow anyone to cross. ❤️🌹 This because I need a partner who understands the moral implications and challenges of my mission.

I am writing a letter to the person I love because we can not talk right now and I have so much to express that is interfering with my ability to focus on anything else. I have many feelings that I would like to talk with him about and it is hard because I have many barriers that don't allow me to do so. Some are physical and some are emotional. The more I feel his presence and love in my life the more all the other things that don't belong in that energy surfaces and I am doing a very extended and dedicated work to transmute it. I am a victim of sexual abuse so sometimes all my past trauma gets in the way and I can't, process it all at once. I am taking one step at a time and doing my best but I would like him to know that he is always on my mind even when I don't communicate that. I also know that he has his own stuff and I know he is working on them and we are supporting each other energetically in this healing process. However sometimes I feel this is not enough because a part of me (not all of me) feels that I am the problem in all this mess we are trying to manage. He never made me feel that way, quite the opposite.. if anything, he makes me feel that it is possible for me to be loved the way I have always wanted regardless the extension of my trauma baggage - that is also affecting him on different levels. (emotionally, mentally and also socially). I am saying a lot without saying anything.. I guess I just needed to let it out. I understood with this challenge that my shield is anger. I have sometimes the need of being held in my anger, which I think can be very hard for the other person who receives it.. and because of it I refrain from showing up because I don't want my anger to hurt his feelings. He is the first masculine energy I truly feel safe with my feelings in a very, very long time and that is scary. Not only that, it is scary to think that my anger can scare him away. Sadness I think it is easy to hold. Or at least people relate more to it and don't take it so personal. But the way anger shows up in my body and in my expression is against the 'male archetype' and I never had anyone holding space for me in it.

I am falling behind on some videos because I am taking care of other things that need my attention right now. Until when do we have access to them?

Your GIFs are always the best! I loved this story when I was a child. 😊😍

Awesome call indeed! You are really good at guiding people and bein supportive while their own process unfolds. I was lucky once again with having the perfect energy being mirrored by the people who were coached. Jolene's experience trigger a lot of hidden shame that I am already working on for few days but because I felt seen and validated I could release a huge junk of it. At its core it was related with the type of humiliations my dad put me through and I found a believe that people will at some point find something that they don't like about me and thus they will stop liking me. I never had problems in starting relationships, I always struggled with maintaining them healthy because the person always flipped on me at some point. I always made it about me.. like.. here we go.. this is the moment they will stop loving me. Of course I am aware that this is not true because my trauma made me selectively biased in my past partner's choices. I also related with the feeling of avoiding people who I was attracted to because I simply couldn't handle those feelings. True love felt unsafe. It feels good to be accepted, loved and seen even though I don't understand why I am loved. Marie 🌸 With Steph's testimony I re-owned a super sweet and gentle vulnerable part of me who was either criticized or taken advantaged of for being so. It was not necessary inner child work for this part.. I simply integrated that energy and allowed myself to feel again ok with being soft and sweet without fear. Being able to be honest about my feelings is the most healing thing ever. I loved the amount of authenticity in this call. No preparation or performance needed. I still feel triggered that there are things 'out there' that I can't control and that can eventually make me feel exposed again. Patricia Taking things one step at a time. There is always more to be expressed. Thank you everybody! Sending healing vibes to this amazing community. I love you! ❤️✨