https://youtu.be/hkLGTP0e9AE?si=1eem9g4Io8BLKTss

Today I was at the psychologist's office, and when I left to go home, my dad and I passed a little old man playing an accordion on the street. Well, since I'm hyper-focused on instruments and music in general (it's no wonder I can play the piano, guitar, bass, harmonica, and a little flute), my dad asked if I wanted him to stop the car so I could check out the accordion. Of course, I said yes, and then we talked to him for a bit, etc., and then he lent me the accordion so I could play around with it. Sure, the sound is terrible? Really! But take it easy, too. Look at my size compared to the accordion, and it was the first time I'd ever played one... (the video cut off at the end, but anyway, I think I was able to recognize which song he was trying to play. And by the way, this accordion is quite classic here in Brazil, especially in the south of Brazil, but it's normal to see some old men playing instruments here on the streets of São Paulo :p)

Well, probably a lot of people don't know me or don't remember me, but here we go... Well, my name is Ryan, or Bismarck, as you prefer. I've been in the Brazilian countryball community since 2022. I've seen a lot of things in this community, from huge fights to worse. I was also an administrator for one of the largest servers in the Brazilian countryball community on Discord. But this year, I lost all that. I just want to talk about why I'm gone and why I've been silent for so long: Well, recently I've been receiving accusations of being a Nazi follower because of an RP I did, where I played a Nazi character (you know Cartman from South Park? He's like him). And since many of these RPs involving this character were about Nazism, I received accusations of condoning it. But at no point did I intentionally apologize; what I did was: play a Nazi character and really like the Nazi aesthetic (what do you mean? Basically, I really like Nazi music, weapons, uniforms, etc., but I never agreed with the ideology). I've also been accused of several other things, but that's the main one. "Okay, and why did you disappear from here because of that?" I disappeared because I was afraid to come here and have the same people who are persecuting me come here and talk their shit here, and I'd also be kicked out. Well, I apologize for my sudden disappearance, even though many don't remember me or even know me (but I'll say one thing: I've been here since the beginning, and I was once one of the most active people here).

https://youtu.be/qYGI_Tgk1TI?si=Osb-khOC2cRCq3qi