I want to be vulnerable again Used, exposed, misunderstood To cry Beg for attention To be a baby Rather than pride. I want to live again To wrestle uncertainties Trouble To scratch my head Mud in my face, knuckles. Rather than being dead. I want to love again Kiss and hug like a teenager Tears Heartaches Insecurities Rather than hatred. I want to try again Work and toil like a slave Unpaid wages Sore muscles Smelly armpits Rather than sleep all day. I want to be a father again A burden not appreciated The midnight cries Dry dad jokes To be reminded it’s never enough. Rather than an empty house. I want to be a Christian again Fasting, prayers, and arguing with God The devil to fight me Temptations The burden of my cross Rather than mistrust God.

I cant live without you, your smile Though youre tempermental as a child Prone to giving me a cold shoulder And to keeping count as I get older Laughing at me till my cheeks burn Disappearing at every turn of the earth And today you feel 93 million miles away. I know you think you can do better You say Im only using you to change the weather But thats not true. Sure there are plenty of stars And Ill admit I like Venus and Mars a bit But they’re far away And you’re near. But its so frustrating that you cant you deal with your emotions Why are you running off to Artic oceans, melting glaciers And stranding the polar bears? You keep leaving me unexpectedly In the middle of spring. You thought I didnt care But you dont know how I cried Every time you’d hide your love affairs Behind a veil of clouds. Why are you always too busy for me Why do you think its ok to ignore me These days Im so desperate to get your attention Ive even thought about cheating on you With the moon. Feel free to leave any feedback or suggestions!