I've feeling so strongly that the "negative" is a part of it and doesn't need to be changed or eliminated but have struggled to put this into a concept or words but loved how Suzanne Giesemann offers the battery analogy, made my whole body sigh with relief! Here is a beautiful conversation about this and letting go of the story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1o1JXYCxlw

Our very own @Denise Moore wrote the most beautiful piece about approval or connection, I had full chills so many times, this just really spoke to things that are so meaningful to me, I'll let it speak for itself, thank you for giving me permission to share Denise! xo

Hey dear friends, as you have seen, I have not been able to figure out how to make the hangouts work for the past several times and am still stumped looking ahead, I'm not sure what it's about, but my focus right now internally is to really accept when things are not falling into place and let them go even when it may disappoint others, this is really what the RRP is giving me so clearly, this internal stability around disappointing others in a way I've not felt before, the part that is worried about everyone else is still worried, but less so and that feels like a win....so all of that to say, I am going to put the hangouts on pause and see if a time opens up that makes sense or if it just is no longer needed or whatever else arises from the void, so powerful to begin seeing that letting go of things or letting things crumble/end/die is the natural way to open the void that then is where a new creation can spring from or that provides the space and quiet stillness where peace or chaos or anything in between can take up residence, really cool how the less material production and doing the more space can be welcomed and echo the growing understanding of how everything in physical reality is like 99.9% space! Bring on that dark femme chaos! And speaking of, at our last hangout came forward a really beautiful conversation around the dark feminine and @Noah Souder-Russo and @Rachel Williams and I had a continuation of that conversation and it was just delicious! What is your experience of the darkness?

Hey hey! If anyone wants to join me for our writers room tonight at 5pm PT/8pm ET, here is the zoom link: https://us02web.zoom.us/j/3616403212?pwd=V29YdlhrM0ZNUVRRbEx6N2ZDWlNjZz09 For those that haven't joined before - it's very low-key and very fun. We free-write about 3 different prompts (or, whatever you want to write about if the prompts don't resonate) for 10 minutes each, and at the end you are welcome to share what you wrote (or not), how you felt about writing (or not), or anything else that popped in for you while we wrote (or not). Hope you see you there! If you can't make it tonight, the next one will be Feb 4th at the same bat time, same bat zoomy zoom link :)

i was inspired by our hang today (especially @Rachel Williams ' exploration of the dark feminine) so i asked chat gpt about the relationship between confusion/chaos and the energy of the dark feminine. the word confusion comes from the latin "confundere" which literally means "to mix together" or "to pour together." chaos is often described as the primordial state from which all creation arises and the "external" state of not knowing; unpredictability, dissolution of the familiar. confusion might be viewed as the "internal" experience of chaos. the dark feminine as chaos is cyclical - death and rebirth. the liminal space of "mixing" and blurring the illusory rigidity of form - the masculine - especially as the masculine has been expressed through patriarchy (and all systems of domination). alright yall my thesis is over thanks for reading so much love <3 <3 so curious to hear folks thoughts if something comes up. personally, i'm here for this kali energy. From chatgpt: Dark feminine energy often embodies themes like mystery, transformation, and the unseen depths of the psyche. Here's how confusion might connect to it: 1. The Alchemy of the Unknown - Confusion, etymologically rooted in "mixing together," mirrors the transformative chaos associated with the dark feminine. In myths and archetypes, the dark feminine energy often thrives in the space of uncertainty, where old structures dissolve, and new truths are born. - Like the cauldron, a classic dark feminine symbol, confusion is a "container" where disparate elements mix, dissolve, and eventually transform into something new—mirroring processes of inner alchemy. 2. The Mysteries of the Psyche - Dark feminine energy is linked to the subconscious and the shadow, areas of life that are inherently murky and unclear. Confusion arises when the rational mind encounters these hidden depths. It's the invitation to explore what lies beneath the surface, much like diving into shadow work or embracing intuition. - The blending ("pouring together") in confusion reflects the dark feminine's tendency to blur boundaries between what is known and unknown, conscious and unconscious, light and shadow.