I missed this before... but I wanna say I am 🙌 FEEEELING you on this!!! Bigtime, and been very aware that the physical place I am is not the place where I am best seen (nor best nourished!) But the process of exodus is indeed long & intricate & many-layered. Not gonna be able to just Sag-bounce outta town on this one. Got a whooooole ass plan, but the thing is it hinges not only upon 1) my creative magic & well-nourished unfurling, but 2) my finding my right people of brilliant resonant heartfam, while 3) mourning the reality of how the ones I had already worked so hard to find vanished in terrible ways. (Leaving #3 to rest for now, as it has taken up MASSIVE energy over the course of years and I am currently in the upswing from some beautiful healing processes that have restored me and rendered me feeling MUCH lighter, thank Goddexx 🌹🌕 🙌!!!) But for 1 & 2, it does sorta make a scenario where my ability to build the epic creative happenings that I'm capable of (and need to build) requires my magic to be well nourished... AND meanwhile what I am building is in part aimed to getting me where I know I will be more nourished. Gahhhhh that's a solid bind right there. Reminds me of one of the notes found in a healing session I had last week, knowing I'm not alone in this feeling: the sense of being asked to "build the thing you needed but didn't have, while healing from the wounds dealt to you in its absence!" Anyone else feel this? Growing a garden because you're starving, but like there's months of hard work before you're gonna have even a bite to eat? This is how my creative self has felt for some years. And yet... worth naming... the Wilds keep finding a way to feed me. ✨️🌿✨️ Else I wouldn't be here at all. So.... what I was shown, multiple times & then some, is to lean in, settle in, snuggle in, to where that nourishment is coming from. This is what I have been guided to do, all season so far, every layer of snow melting into fertile ground, every moment of sunshine asking nothing of me, every meeting of tears & laughter where I am truly well-met, well-seen, & well-held. These are the shifts in attention & care that reorient the whole ship. Every day little by little, Love is rebuilding ME. And when I'm strong enough to build, it will be because that Love is in me and has fed me all along. 🙏🌏🌈

@Chelsea Canedy Thanks friend! 🙌 Big Love for the encouragement!!! 🌈

Super feeling you @Isabella Cash on the emerging from long-term burnout motif! Appreciating these insights & the feeling of not-aloneness... I don't know that I would have named mine as "burnout" exactly, as it was instigated by acute trauma... buuut after 3+ years of working on healing that within the bigger context of long-range big-picture trauma healing that includes all my lineages and all my Earthkin, y'know ALL OF LIFE nbd, it doooooes seem possible that there is a whiff of burnout in what I have been experiencing. Ha. The reframe is interesting. Add it to the soil of the reorganizations & reorientations been happening lately (YOOOO that Libra fullmoon was 🔥💧🌹whole week of medicinal healing, f'real!) And I'll circle back if any actual insights emerge. Just noticing how it feels to relate to it as burnout, rather than a "more healing to do" task list. Hmmmmmmm. Feels interesting. Turns my judgy voice down (i.e. "how can you be burnt out when you haven't started yet?") Especially because I fucking HAVE started, and started, and restarted. A LOT. So from this awareness, the thing I might feel the most burnt out from is... Starting. (Hmmmm all these planets in Aries be like: 🔥♈️🐏 ?)

@Chelsea Canedy Gahhhhh you are not the first person this Aries season to remind/nudge me about having FUN! ("Does anybody remember LAUGHTER?!?") (*insert Led Zeppelin gif here...* I am not so gif-gifted 😄) But yahhhh turns out this Fish is sitting with that, gently learning where it feels safe to access Fun again. Yeeesh, the trauma took a lot outta me. Fun co-arose with Confidence in times past, and the stories that I have been healing from (🔥 IMMUNE BOOST!!!💧 Truly. Big Help in recent seasonal waves.) well those stories about me are other people's shit that is not my shit. I am no longer gonna try to make it my shit. Reconciliation Team of One has retired in those regards. I'll do my own work, and I'll look to where true Collaboration is not only possible but deeply mutual & generative & balanced & beautiful. But I'm not gonna hold or try to metabolize stories left like trashpiles by those who could not be responsible for their own fucking shit. (Yeeeeep! Tell ya what, this Aries season has brought some Proper Fucking Boundaries on the scene, and when I feel those integrate, I do indeed start to feel a bit of FUN.) So that's my current update/takeaway... Aries Saturn et al have been teaching me that clearing out what isn't for me DOES in fact make room for what IS very much exquisitely rightly for me. 🙌 Gratitude for the benevolent support with this.. 💝

@Chelsea Canedy Aw THANKS! This is the kinda work that feeds me while feeding others, and feels like reciprocity for the bigger things we're building. Gently stoking my courage to come out in the world and do this (street poetry) again this summer. Been a long time resurfacing. But it's time.

@Chelsea Canedy Aw thanks! I will share what comes through... warming up for next month, getting some ground tendings in place... (Literal A+A step today is going out to thrift a rug for my outdoor set-up. Setting the scene is essential to the magical container.)

Love this. 💖 I feel like I answered it over in the other thread (on MAGIC!!!) And so I'll reiterate the simple part.. I am leaning into ✨️TRUST✨️ and ✨️GRATITUDE✨️ for all that is *already* holding, nourishing, & building my LIFE! 🙌

Just getting here, hope you are very much well by now. 🌹