😖When things go sideways big time
This is my personal story which I will tell you right now. 3 years ago I was engaged, had 2 beautiful dogs and an amazing life. Then the relationship crushed and we separated. I kicked her out (because at this time there was no other way for me). I felt bad after day 2. After day 7 I felt lonely and frustrated. I wanted to hurt my self. My business was really bad and I had no just a few clients. Then I got miserable and impolite. I was an asshole and also behaved like one. This was my low point. Today I am leaving in another city with another woman in her flat. And I feel miserable again. Because I moved in 2 months ago and I fell like I am in the wrong place. Everything in the flat of my girlfriend is precious. And it has to be tidy and clean every fucking day. Nothing on the desk, no crumbles in the kitchen. I am feeling a little bit like a robot. So I decided to tell her that I am thinking to move out of her flat because I am not feeling well in her flat because of all this rules and guidelines. I told her 10 times that it is not because of her but because of her flat and all the rules and so on. She cried and just said: you have decided to go, when do you wanna go? I replied and said: no I don’t want to go I want that you understand that I have to go, otherwise I will loose my identity and character. Since then she is sad and frustrated all the time and I feel so much more miserable than the time when I had my lowest point. I am not writing this because I want your pity, because this is my decision. I am writing this because maybe some of you had this experience before and is open to talk about this. This would help me big time and I appreciate everybody who is supporting me on my future journey. Thank you so much HuRus ❤️ She went into another flat