Hello I’m Phany. Today I finally decided to live my truth. It’s the first step and I haven’t been able to stop crying. Purging every ounce of my well being. Feeling of sadness and remorse but lighted at the same time. Today I came across something called Erotic Intelligence. I deeply sat with myself and asked “ is this the desire I what? Because the ones who stopped lying to themselves of what they want walk with such grace. They have stopped splitting themselves: the spiritual self goes to the temple, the desiring self goes underground, and neither one tells the truth. They have learned to hold desire and consciousness in the same hand. This is not about technique. It is about honesty. The kind that costs something. And it did cost something because I couldn’t be truthful to myself. I ended up hurting others. Fuck, it caught up to me. My voice trembled as the tears fall down, but it is about being honest in your life. It is the willingness to know what you want, to hold that knowing without shame, and to move through the world as someone who has stopped lying to themselves about what moves them. As this new shift, I intend to not judge, not defend, nor explain it. Just witness it.

something i don't think we savor enough is all the little victories and moments in life that make us exhale or remain in reverance for ourselves. (for me personally, i have a lilllllll tendencyyyy to gloss over what i've been able to accomplish. sort of like #thankunext vibes) in the spirit of allowing us to SETTLE inside the identity shifts we're making, i want to bring this wins tab alive. some ideas: -> maybe you were able to stand up for yourself and spoke your truth, regardless of how much your voice was shaking -> perhaps you were able to sell your offering + share your price without shrinking -> maybe you made an extra $100! -> maybe you were able to treat yourself or a loved one to a coffee out without worry -> perhaps you made a big leap and took that "risk" you've been sitting on whatever the "win" is, i want us to make it SPECIAL here. share and we will celebrate you!