Amen- I listened to the recording, and I never even thought of selfish ambition/overachieving in this way. I know you didn't harp on it much, but perfection was mentioned, and I 😯 was very thankful for this lesson. I hold myself to the fire (I have gotten better at giving myself grace). This area I am still working on. Why- abandonment & rejection would be the why, although I didn't think it was until I watched the lesson. If I am perfect or do it perfectly, they will stay; they will not reject me. Yet, who am I? They rejected Jesus... his own people, so in this life rejection and abandonment will come from people, but My God- My Abba will never reject nor abandon me, and this I need to stir in my spirit daily until it bubbles over.