Nathan / Western Washington My awakening story is a bit lengthy, but in the early / mid 2000s I couldn't get enough spiritual growth content - I lived, ate, and breathed it. I joined a local energy group and we practiced reading each other and doing healings via our higher selves. This was actually just practice for reading and healing our selves though. One day, when I was at home doing a meditation, I was given a gift of knowing my true identity. It came suddenly and unexpectedly. I was on a "high" for many years. And I loved listening to as many NDEs as I could – as they seemed like kindred spirits that had learned / experienced many of the same things I did, but in death, rather than in meditation and "downloads". Monitoring my own thoughts became even easier and I would laugh historically at my own thoughts of random insanity - especially anything having to do with the ego. I couldn't take it seriously. Unfortunately, I found other people's thoughts just as funny - which they did not understand. Over the last decade, or more, I've slowly taped off in all my practice. Over the course of many years I've stopped monitoring my thoughts, meditating, or doing healing work on myself and others. I got lazy and thought everything would be OK - that I could manage things without doing any practice, so to speak. It seems like the crazier the world got the less I practiced and the more I spiraled with it. The de-evolution of society really threw me for a loop – completely baffed – and with no one to share my perspective with. My health has suffered immensely with my decline, as well – with all kinds of obscure diseases riddling my body – making getting back to normal even that much more of a challenge and seeming to “solidify the realness” of the earthly realm even more. I always have plans to pick things back up, and feel better when I do. I yearn to go deep again - it's in my nature and I've never forgotten my true identity. But I got lost in the sauce and the illusion of earth realities for a long while - and paid the price, dearly.