@Neus Torné Hey! Glad to see you here. What is exactly the point of holding you back? Is it a set of beliefs? For me it was a set of beliefs and all those beliefs created what I was living. It works like magic. I didn't change for a long time before being ready to accept that fully. It was a process, but when I stopped holding onto a definitions of whatever lack or similar that I believed is inherently tied to my life, it flipped. Truth is once you start feeling yourself more and stop defining yourself with the bullshit you took in from your environment, it`s going to be quite impossible not to life your soul and be "self-sufficient" if that`s what you want. That`s another thing - self sufficiency as a badge of pride someone can sacrifice their life for just for not being judged etc. We can talk about that more as well and what your definition of self-sufficiency is and if it`s getting in your way or not. I was super into that and I needed to do everything myself all the time to the point I avoided help all together and said no to so many things that would improve my life, just to know I did it myself.. Sometimes I still struggle with that but in much less of an intensity than before. So tell, what it is for you because maybe I am completely off and your case is something different. But I am certainly happy that you`re here. Welcome

@Al Chapman Yeah basically all negative emotions are percepts. If it`s heavy, it`s not you. Fear is a lie. Cautiousness not, but paranoic evil fear is. Cpomplete lie and conspiracy against one-self. Easy as that. Took me some time to integrate that.