Hey guys. I'm Nate. One great thing in my life that keeps me going is I have two beautiful healthy boys that mean the world to me , they keep me going through these hard times I'm facing. I'm struggling with breaking old habits and patterns. I know what I need to do but lack the strength to follow through. Vicious cycle, I know... My weird thing is most like ocd where I need my tools put back in my box organized exactly how they came out.

@Morgan Freedude I trying to be more conscience and self aware as to when I feel triggered or impulsive. I see a therapist and do meditation on the regular. I feel like I need to be more disciplined to align my beliefs with my actions.