I’m 31 years old.And this is the honest truth about me — no filters. - Broke. - No car. - No home. - No real friends or network. - No girlfriend. - Never traveled internationally or even properly within India. - Never had a woman who truly loved me. - Fat, ugly (in my own eyes), and bald with some white hair. - Completely undisciplined. - Only 10th pass — failed 12th. - A diploma from a third-rate college. - No degree. - No confidence to speak in English or talk to people. - Get nervous and anxious easily, especially in front of women. - No skills. - No motivation. - Addicted to porn and fapping daily for the last 15 years. - Always lying to my family and friends. - Dependent on my father, who earns only ₹20,000 a month — and I can’t do anything for him. - Lost my golden years doing nothing but scrolling, overthinking, and building fake scenarios in my head. - I compare myself with everyone on social media and feel worse every single day. - I feel like a complete loser. And you know what hurts the most?When I see others doing the things I wanted to do — it breaks me inside.It feels like something inside me is burning… like I’m being left behind while life moves on. I’ve tried to change.I really did.But every time I start — I fall back into the same cycle again.Scrolling endlessly.Watching porn.Eating junk.Wasting time.And then hating myself for it. I don’t even know how to express this pain properly.It’s just… something deep inside that hurts beyond words.