Yesterday I got my first payment as a freelancer. I used to think I'll be so happy when I'll get my first payment and my heart would be exploding with emotions and happiness but when I finally received the notification I felt nothing, just emptiness settling in the heart. I'm not ungrateful, because the first words that came out of my mouth were 'Alhumdullilah'. But that's a motivation for me to keep going.

🍀You should be your best friend and talk to yourself about things that are going in your head , this is best way to improve yourself 🎯Give yourself some challenges and say to yourself you can do it,it is easy 🛑 Stop blaming and🤝 start taking responsibility of your actions. And accept that things went wrong because you didn't take action or sometimes you took some wrong decisions.Learn from them and start taking actions on time.

Day 3 🍀13th February ,26 1️⃣Woke up at fajar but didn't pray because I slept for 10 more minutes .... Really feel sad for it 2️⃣Ready for job ,today is a activity day so I prayed Allah for managed my affairs and make the easy for me and Alhmdulillah..did lots of work and everything goes really well 3️⃣Recite surah kahaf ✨offer prayer and recite duraod shareef too . Alhmdulillah 5️⃣Spend time with family,offer ASR prayer and discussed some issues. 6️⃣I was planned to learn new things but feel distracted and can't do it but watch some self help vedios and do some self talk and reflecting my past mistakes and in Sha Allah not doing them in future

Sleep: 11:00 PM – 8:00 AM - Morning: Freshened up, had breakfast, and spent some time with Mama from 8:00 AM to 10:00 AM. - Midday: Started working on my system at 10:00 AM, but I felt depressed and tense due to some family issues. I tried to focus, but without clarity or mindfulness, I couldn’t get much done. I then decided to practice video editing for content creation. I spent 10:00 AM to 3:00 PM editing a video, but I ended up deleting it and didn’t post it on social media, which made me feel frustrated and unproductive. - Afternoon: I spent some time reflecting and overthinking, doubting myself, and questioning whether I’m doing the right or wrong things. Later, I checked LinkedIn, saw a friend’s post, and reached out to him on WhatsApp. He gave me some helpful tips about content creation. I then took a break, went on the roof from 4:00 PM to 5:00 PM to get sunlight, stayed quiet, and spent time with myself. - Evening: Had a light meal from 5:00 PM to 6:00 PM. After that, my mood was low, so I scrolled on my phone and did nothing productive from 6:00 PM to 9:00 PM. - Night: Returned to my system at 9:00 PM and tried working on my Python projects, but internet issues caused frustration again. I decided to sleep from 9:00 PM to 11:00 PM. - Reflection: Today was slow and not a good day for me. Family issues are affecting my mental state and productivity. This week, I’ve only managed to work for 24 hours. I feel sad, but remain hopeful that I’ll get back on track soon.

Salaam,. I am going through self-doubt and confusion in my life, because of which I am in a lot of depression and anxiety. I am even getting suicidal thoughts and I don’t understand anything. If someone could talk to me and guide me properly for the sake of Allah ﷻ, it would be a great help for me. Please 🙏💔