Good evening everyone. Ive been applying for jobs lately and prayerfully we can all can pray for God to open doors for opportunities. There is one with Quest Diagnostics Medical Advisor Im interested in most. I appreciate you all deeply.

If I had to be honest, I still dont have an understanding as what the fire is revealing, or what the ultimate revelation is, however, through this fire, I did realize how far away Ive been from God, how is drifted and concentrated on my daily battles, and perhaps this was an awakening to the drifting away; a warning. I know faith is not based on what I can see, but a hope; a hope that this fire will forge me into a spiritually strong woman, unwavering in faith, and unshakable foundation. Even though I may not have the full understanding of why Im in the fire, or see an end to the fire, I will stand on Philippians 4:11.

Praising in the Pressure. I woke up this morning and just talked to God, because this season I dont have a complete understanding of the plan or the reason why Im in this position. Starting a business is alot of pressure and not having the knowing if and when it will be successful is daunting. Other times I have thoughts that what if its not meant to be successful and it fails? What are my options then? Worry starts to creep in. This study reminded me that no matter what situation I find myself in, good or bad, to not allow it to impact my praise.

Dear Fire: While it may hurt and burn as I walk through, I will not allow you to burn my soul. You have came to take away my childhood, cause me to experience trauma and abuse, take away my home, my car, and even separate me from my children, came to cause divorce, racism at the job, periods of unemployment, but through it all, its burned shame, burned the guilt, burn the low self-esteem, burn the mental health issues, and shaped me to be strengthened in adversity. It has also caused me to rededicate myself back to the Lord, knowing that its my control or my will. The burning in the fire is not loss, but a win in Christ.

Faith that doesn’t flinch. It’s a reminder of when this period of losses began and I had fear that things won’t turn around. I wanted the situation to change immediately, and knew God could do it but never trusted to the point of if he doesn’t. I was fixated on change. The study taught me to trust no matter what. That is something I’m going to have to learn and build more of, standing in the fire and not waiting on water to put it out, no matter what.