...the soul having discovered the beauty and excellency of forgiveness as it is with God, as it is in his gracious heart, in his eternal purpose, in the blood of Christ, in the promise of the gospel, is resolved to wait quietly and patiently for the time wherein God will clear up unto it its own personal interest therein. Even one experimental embracement of it, even at the hour of death, doth well deserve the waiting and obedience of the whole course of a man's life.

It is not possible to escape the Law of our own accord. Nessus the centaur, at the River of Boiling Blood in the 7th circle of Hell, "of himself wrought vengeance for himself" 😬 Dante, 'Inferno', Canto XII

Reason's line is too short to fathom the depths of the Father's love, of the blood of the Son, and the promises of the gospel built thereon, wherein forgiveness dwells. Men cannot by their rational consideration launch out into these deeps, nor draw water by them from these 'wells of salvation'. Reason stands amazed, and cries, 'How can these things be?' It can but gather cockleshells... at the shore of this ocean.

None in the world deal deal worse with God than those who have an ungrounded persuasion of forgiveness

There is not the least encouragement for the soul of a sinner to entertain any thoughts of approaching unto God without this discovery (of forgiveness). All the rest of the world is covered with a deluge of wrath. This is the only ark whereunto the soul may repair and find rest. All without it is darkness, curse, and terror.