A life I don't want to run away from. To achieve some level of contentment within my everyday life.

The urge promises relief through numbness TBH, takes me out of the reality of current life, knowing that you have come a way in life but still feel like you have stood still. Long term urge just reestablish the lack of worth that I have/am in life...... Pisses me off.🥴.. Tired of the roundabout I've been on for years

One belief I'd like to loosen is believing I'm not a worthy person.

Kindness

My system gets suspicious if it's not harshness. Tough love.