The slow process of losing my vision I had no idea it was happening I was ambitious Always focused on potential possibilities "Anything is possible!" Was my motto Then a slow buildup of realizing no one else really cares A thought that everyone is silently wishing I would stop shinning the light on everything Feeling them rolling their eyes because I am explaining how things could be done if we just all worked together And finally allowing the final nail that shut me down Fine you win, I will shut up Not even thinking that obviously I was the one in this position because of my vision But I realize now I let it go because I decided I don't have the authority So why try to force people to care "Why do I even care" became my new moto And this shift led me toward a path that would be my rock bottom A path I look back on from my new now true self After years of learning to remember her And all I feel is gratitude Every single feeling of despair And every single feeling of remembering Of what it takes to build a new way of being from the inside-out Uniting my highest self and my shadow Requiring me to first allow myself to meet them Believe that they were real And engaging them The journey can't be repeated exactly the same by any two people Each one as unique as the person For me it was walking in nature, which led me to Tarot and building a journallong practice for self discovery, leading to deep shadow work, which led me to Occult studies and the Laws of Universe, and then implementing deeper meditations and opening to signs. Those signs led me to Archangel Metatron, Mother Gaia, Goddess Isis, and then straight to Mary Magdalene. Magdalene has taught me about embodiment right when I was ready She showed me how to connect dots inside How to experience my soul fully and my connection to love The limitless love inside us all that must first be turned to self and then is able to overflow to all Building my vision now is like giving birth -> the creation is not mine to control, the vessel (my own body + mind + soul) of creation is mine to nurture