I'm pretending that I'm always happy and people know me as happy, person, I try not to complain, and am always grateful, I have nothing in life, I'm just living day to day, and often worry about the future, but convince myself it will be fine,, but I find that certain people from my pass will be nasty and say bad things about me, my children deep down don't like me, but I remain calm, I find men not to be anist and always treat me like I'm not worth it, they openly cheat and I accept, in reality I'm very alone, but wish to be loved, home is horror living with an Oldman I cook and clean for accommodation,