@Trinley Goldenberg Hey Trinley! Thanks for asking im gonna put the same answer I did on twitter with you - Although I’m not sure if I can articulate this well but to give you an idea my motivation to do stuff in a certain direction was initially money and to prove a point that I can but now post the realisation that I dont need to prove anyone anything and the initiation of the healing of that part, my motivation to do stuff I want inherently is blocked due to say money or feeling not-enough. Although Ive a lot other show for workwise, yet I feel there’s something and someone better than me always and thats makes me feel small. This self doubt creates a vicious loop or procrastination and a victim mindset or pointlessness sometimes. And it gets amplified more because Im financially taking a break and am dependant on my husband. But I do know Ive a lotta gifts to offer but the whole idea of starting something and doing multiple times is just daunting. Having said that I feel a certain extent of deep okayness and joy in life and how my journey is unfolding but it’d be nice to try some new playful ways of motivating myself towards doing more things just for the fun of it so I can achieve some form of flow state. Ah, thanks for asking this, I hadn’t collected my thoughts this well before this. :D feeling a lotta good feels rn haha.