Not control over your future. There are things that happened to you that greatly hurt. I want to take this moment to honour that. Some of them scarred you. Some of them still live in your body. Some days you can feel them before you even name nor understand what you're going through. Honor that. Let yourself grieve what you didn't get. The father you needed. The love you were looking for. The years you feel you lost. The version of yourself you had to abandon just to survive. You don't have to disassociate that it didn't happen. But at some point, you have to stop handing that part of you the steering wheel. Because feeling sorry for yourself can become addictive. The story becomes the scapegoat of lost potential. "I'm damaged." "I'm behind." "I'm too late." "I should have figured this out years ago." And sometimes those statements sound like honest accountability. They're also a place to hide. You can spend another year explaining why you haven't moved. Or you can stand up and meet the life that's present for you now. Don't fall for the trap of healing everything before you start moving forward either. move with the grief. move with the fear. move with the parts of you that are still learning how to trust life again. Stop calling yourself late when you're using "late" as another reason to stay on the couch. Get up. Get moving. https://youtube.com/shorts/cRmDLKVsJtM?si=Fm-7rrxW024e6-5Z

Bring your tinfoil hat for this one and an open mind. Strip the costume off the word demon and all you've got left is an entity. The old religions named them a long time ago. Lust. Gluttony. Fear. Envy. Pride. This episode we take them out of scripture and shine our lights of consciousness on them, in our states, moment to moment. Are you in fear right now? In pride? maybe it's not just a mood passing through. Entities live on your attention. Whatever you direct it on, your energy flows. Look at the machine we're inside of now. The news runs on fear. The scrolling runs on lust. Compare yourself to another man online and you've handed yourself to envy. The thoughts come carrying the tone of your own voice, which is the whole trick. They sound like you. Me & Jarne kept coming back to that, the work of getting quiet enough to tell the difference between a thought that's yours and a whisper that isn't. We went into the harder ground too. Growing up feeling followed by something. Facing it in the mirror. Fear and pride bending a whole family out of shape, the imprints handed down before anyone could name them. Why spiritual bypassing doesn't work, and what it actually took to sit in constant fear and not run from it. The soul is a fractal of God and stays pure no matter what it's been through. Nothing can touch a man standing in his own power. The defence was never a weapon but a decision to stay present. A present man is harder to feed on. This is part one. We go over part two next week. Vertical Man is a live podcast & men's group, held by Jarne and Mahmoud. Every Sunday, 10 PM Cairo. https://open.spotify.com/episode/6rdbP3J8vAaxgEOMxORzXR

Our Podcast for today has the topic Entities. We often aren’t aware of entities attached to our beings, telling us stories, sucking out energy and make us behave in ways we don’t want and consciously control…. Brothers I invite you to join us today in about 1 hour time live. Sisters, I invite you to watch the reply. Brother @Mahmoud Bayoumi and I go deep. Thanks for the brothers who already joined us live. @Thorben Hauerstein @Ope Dreville @Jeremy Miller @Ben B. 🙌 did I miss someone?? Check out my YouTube Podcast Area for the Vertical Man here. Check out @Mahmoud Bayoumi Spotify Channel for the Vertical Man here

Slow day today, turns out recording your breath into Ableton and mixing it to go with music is a beast of its own. Been doing breathing for four years, struggling to record a good one 😂 Coming soon! Tell me what you feel about the music sneak peak, As you can see, I love bells 🌞 https://youtube.com/shorts/2ZOcTDR9lMU?si=hMhsmgpkPXdOpfc9

I've been finding joy of connecting writings of my recent book with nature's scenes that I come across, the connection made as the book was written to bring a felt sense rather then preaching like heirophant. A man's sight is directly correlated to his boundaries. You do not lose your clarity all at once. You lose it quietly. A yes when you meant no. A truth softened to keep the peace. Each small bend stirs the water a little more, until you are moving through your own life half blind, wondering why nothing feels clear anymore. I know that fog. I lived in it for years, and called it being easy to get along with. But truth does something to your sight. The moment you stop performing, stop bending, and let your words be few and true, the water settles. Your vision opens. You start to see what was hidden. In yourself, in the people around you, in the road ahead. It is not about becoming harsh. It is about becoming clear. And if you feel like you have not seen your own life clearly in a long time, I want to acknowledge you. The fog is not a flaw in you. It is just years of small bends, and it can settle. I wrote The Sacred Return for this kind of clearing. A thirty day walk back into your own truth https://youtube.com/shorts/JC-bzjiHMWk?si=lv2-5q2-s7L6ewVi