Hey Amanda, I hear you. Quick glance at your YT channel and you are fly, look great, good presence and OMG you have so many videos and a good size audience. That's a dream for me. I think the game is to just keep at it. Can't stop! Having fun is a decision. I do a podcast style YT once a week with this other woman (Future Unscripted). I have barely 50 followers... We've yet to miss one week since we started, we keep looking ahead and dreaming about the day we get to meet in person and film inside a real podcast studio and all... We are also not good yet... but we know that we will get better, things will get better.. etc ... I do the edits... I have fun, I have fun sitting on zoom chatting and recording. Life could be shortened at any point and therefore.. eevrything I do .. I find pleasure in it. It's not easy but think about when it takes off. I need to start back my personal channel asap. But yeah, you keep at it! 💟