Do We Actually Want the Truth...or Just the Thrill of the Scandal?
Thereās a question I canāt stop circling: Do we really want the truth or do we just like the adrenaline rush of almost discovering it? Because going down a rabbit hole sounds romantic until you realize it doesnāt come with a ladder. At first, it feels empowering. You start questioning systems you were told not to question. Food. Medicine. Beauty. Media. Authority. Control. You begin to notice patterns. Incentives. Who profits and who pays the price. And then something unsettling happens. You see too much. Once you really start pulling threads, youāre forced to confront an uncomfortable possibility: what if we are far more controlled than we want to believe? Not in a sci-fi, tinfoil-hat way. In a banal, bureaucratic, market-tested, perfectly legal way. We are told what to eat, what to wear, how to age, how to heal, how to behave. Our minds are sponges, and marketing knows this. Our egos crave belonging more than truth. We donāt want whatās good for us. We want what signals that we fit in. Herd mentality isnāt an insult. Itās a survival instinct thatās been hijacked. So we eat food stripped of nutrients and preserved for shelf life, not vitality. We live in chemically saturated environments and call it convenience. We inject neurotoxins into our faces to look younger while our bodies quietly accumulate damage. We trust systems that profit from keeping us dependent while convincing ourselves weāre making āinformed choices.ā And even when we know this is absurd, we still participate. Because doctors approve it. Because everyone else is doing it. Because stopping would require admitting weāve built entire lives on assumptions that no longer hold. This isnāt stupidity. Itās cognitive dissonance on a mass scale. And yet, for me, this realization didnāt begin with food or beauty or medicine. It began with religion. _____________________________________ The Magdalene Thread In usual Sandi fashion, I have nearly exhausted my āconspiracy theoriesā about the development of Christianity and the Catholic Church. Not casually. Not emotionally. But methodically, across philosophy, archaeology, theology, mysticism, science, and art history.