Firstly, I want to thank Aaron for the amazing webinars. I’ve tried several paid / free sessions of Aaron. All in all, it always gave me some important insights I need to recognize. I couldn’t participate the homework at the appointed timing due to living in very different time zone (Malaysia). But still wanna share what I’ve found out last week. I grew up from very dysfunctional family. It’s not a surprise from many of us who still have turbulent pattens in life choices and relationships. I am one too :)… Entire my life, I was trapped in my own jail and mask. To play small, to act cool, act alright, avoided being vulnerable, over achieving and focus on problem solving. Of course because there was nobody wants to soothe my emotions but only punish me for being in needs and wants. My parents were both very neglecting me for physical and emotional cares. “You’re a big girl, don’t share your burden to me- my life is already so difficult to raise you. I cannot solve your problem even if you share. And you’re only making my feelings bad. Why are you ruining my day? My life is a mess because of you happened and your father.” Or “Don’t you pity me? Don’t you wanna help mama? Don’t you see the burden I carry because of you? You need to be more grateful and comforting mama.” These words have been playing in a loop in my head for so long. I didn’t realize that this was deeply rooted internally. That… I shouldn’t demand, I shouldn’t ask for a help, I shouldn’t show my feelings… I shouldn’t initiate… because then I will only get hurt, shamed, neglected and disappointed. I was repeating this pattern entire of my life. I want it but I act like I don’t want it. I am not okay but act like totally cool with it. Checking on people if they like me or not If they approach me first or not If they choose me or not If the affection will disappear or not And it was linked to my sense of self-worth. I always needed a mirror to reflect me. Someone I can put on a pedestal, who has an authority, to like me, to love me and validate me that I am beautiful, I am Ilovable… I am worth.

comment IM IN if you want to go through it as a group? I unlocked it in the classroom section and you can go through it now! in it you will learn... - My personal meditation practice (the candle flame technique that changed my life) - A somatic breathwork ceremony to release stored emotions from your body - How to let go of what's keeping you stuck in old patterns - ​The 5 biggest blocks to raising your vibration (and how to remove them) - ​How to tune to the highest vibrational version of yourself lmk if you're in and lets do this together!

Sorry I’m late! Hi my name is Liz, from Seoul, South Korea. I intend to love someone straight and also get loved straight, breaking my old patterns. Cheers x