I am learning to surrender wanting to control when my children come to God, and the guilt I feel for not raising them in church where they could come to know and love Jesus. I pray every night and morning for their salvation, and that God will show me the right things to do or say. But I have surrendered this to God - knowing that he has a plan for each of them and will put the right person, moment, or circumstance that will open their hearts to him. That it may not be me, but I am trying to be obedient in the actions I take that show how I have changed and grown since coming back to him. I am trying to "be the light" so they can see how God can change your life.