My critic says finish what you start, you always all over the place. I say I’m grown if I’m not loving the experience or the activity I have permission to move on to something that brings me joy. Creativity is about joy and connection not simply productivity and hamming work out.

Good morning, getting an early start this Saturday morning. I did my journaling in Chat GPT and talked to my COACH and even managed a few strokes on my painting. Got a long day today so I'm off to the races. Have a good day today!!!

“My favorite resistance reset today was Chat GPT. It helped me get perspective.” I work in Chat GPT and Claude quite a bit, so it has been well trained to my goings on. I journal in Chat GPT and ask it questions and just generally talk to it. I have even built a team of advisors so I can sort of think out loud with it and get feedback and perspective. And it is very brutally honest without judgment, and really helps point me in a very helpful direction of next steps. I also trained my Coach in my Therapy app so it is very helpful, very clear on what I am doing right and what I need to rethink. Often, after a session with one of the models, I can approach creativity with a clear head.

“Resistance shows up for me as I'll get to it I have too much going on right now. But I’m learning to meet it with grace for myslef and allowing myself room to take care of myself.

Ok now I'm on the right day. I posted the wrong days before. “Resistance shows up for me as perfectionism and mental fatigue. But I’m learning to meet it with honesty, an embrace, and true acknowledgment.” One may look at me and see a possibly unmotivated, stuck person, but the truth is that perfectionism is paralyzing. The mental fatigue that comes from pushing past fear and perfectionism, not to mention all that pulls a woman's life in a day, is absolutely paralyzing to creativity sometimes. But I have been embracing my perfectionism and acknowledging what it is, naming it, giving it space to reveal itself for what it is, and just saying "we're not doing that". My perfectionism is born from being raised where I got in trouble for getting a 98 instead of 100, and things like that, nothing ever being good enough. I am learning to recognize that I am an adult, have been an adult for a lot longer than I was a child, and as such, I am in control of what is good enough for me. I don't need permission to be creative; it's not a waste of time, it is like sleep, necessary to replenish all that gets stripped in a day. It's coming back to center and a place to begin to rebuild the mind, body, and spirit.