No drinks, no drugs, I got all that out my system. Daily I reflect on my choices, trying to escape this mental prison. Making deposits into my spiritual bank, creating good karma for myself, I've earned my rank. I'm not talking about Street credit, I love em all like K Michelle, gold diggers forget it. They try to use me, yet a real nigga like me you can't use me up. Cuz Jesus is my portion and daily he fills my cup. My relationship with God and myself is what matters the most to me. Not no carlo rossi, weed, coke or old e. Cuz real shit I'm out here on a grind, staying sober and sober minded one day at a time. No more locked doors, baby I did my time. Elevation, dedication, self knowledge and determination. Single as fuck with a lot of masterbation. I'm out here living good, eating good getting money and shining bright. Making bags in my sleep sometimes I work all night. Investing in myself and others with good energy and vibes. Stay down with my A1 day 1 Missy cuz for her I'll ride. I'm her goon for sure can't no one compare. She had my back through it all, 10 toes down she still there. I can't forget about my Dogg Lisa aka Chocolate 216. She been there since shit was thin and still around when shit got thick. I love who love me and I pray for the rest. Just like my daddy when I die tell the people I did my best. I'm one of a kind, a real one let's make that shit clear. Since birth I spoke the truth and my words be sincere. I rather die than lie they don't make em like me. Laverne T Craft big Dogg a true OG.

Damn this Vibe heavy I can feel it in the pits of my soul you've been all on my brain. Been knowing you for 20 years and just found out your real name. Just a sight of your smile brings my heart joy and laughter. It's not just a lustful situation with you I want to see what comes after. Yes I want to make your bed rock and I want to see what it do when our feet hit the floor. You got the type of love I will reciprocate and love you down to my core. I don't want to get too far ahead of myself or get to attached. Something is telling me that you may be my perfect match. We agreed to see where it goes and take things one day at a time. You and I are like diamonds wherever we go we shine. I'm not commanded or demanded I want to be chose too. Thugs need love I want to be a better me for me and you. You got some good ass energy and you already know from me it's reciprocated. On the event we do get together a lot of m************ gone hate it. Girl you got it for sure and you the s*** in my eyes. I'm glad you're a part of my life journey and you just might be the prize. The way you living and loving yourself brings me so much hope. Giving me so much inspiration yeah that s*** is so dope. I'm a real n**** so I give credit when credit is due. A Independent woman like you is the type I'm willing to pursue. Right now I'm blocking out all distractions. I ain't just talking a good game I'm going to show you by my actions. You desire touch compliments hugs and conversation. Allow me to be the one to make the ultimate donation. We both search for real love all of our lives. I'm on some unconditional s*** that thrives. I pray my search is over don't have to leave my options open. I could do magic baby let me hit you with this potion.

No longer am I running around creeping as my knowledge self and self-love deepens. Doing my best not to be a slave to my flesh it's a part of me that lust weakens. I'm clean and sober yet what am I using when I'm not using. Craving attention and affection getting rid of selfishness and not abusing Nothing or no one I will continue to watch my motives and keep all my attentions pure Becoming a better version of myself for that alone there's no cure. Just growing and glowing shining and grinding embracing my journey of healing. Changing my ways totally no longer robbing cheating or stealing. Real talk true story is by God's grace and mercy I'm still alive. I was made in his image so on a daily basis I strive Not for perfection but protection against who I used to be. Good side bad side who stands before you is the real me. Not ducking and hiding showing up and providing for me and mines no doubt. Not just existing I'm living accepting what the real me is about. God first me family and hard work everyone and everything else is a blessing. No longer worried or stressing I think I'm learning my life lessons. Because the thing is we never fail at times we just have to repeat Life don't come with do-overs so for me it's that deep Repeated drug cycles and jail cells kept me enslaved for years Now I'm breaking every chain and overcoming my fears I don't want to be a sad story I want to cry joyful tears Earned my family and friends trust back and making amends as needed Victory is mine's and I'll be damned if I get defeated I sold myself short too many times I'm claiming it I'm going to get what's mines I don't compete or compare myself to no one I'm moving at my own pace I'm staying in my own lane and I know my place It's hard out here just like hustle and Flow Showing much love and respect to all until it's my time to go. Laverne T. Craft

I stayed too long when the love and respect wasn't reciprocated You show me your true colors yeah you demonstrated Red flags toxic behavior showing me all your narcissistic ways Had me questioning myself crying over you for days Unhealthy relationship patterns our so-called unconditional love like a window shattering Had to ask myself am I just dreaming or imagining What our love will be like if you could only do right I must admit I can't forget them sleepless nights I spent alone while you roam calling your phone not knowing if you coming home Talking about your phone lost juice or you was sleep Still I'm concerned like did you rest well and did you eat I felt like I was fighting a losing battle My heart and mind wasn't agreeing felt like I was chasing your Shadow Hoping and praying things between us will get better I was down to stick it out with you no matter the weather I had to face reality you was only loving yourself instead of loving each other My homies at home girls like Tasha get your s*** together Now I'm recovering and healing solo dolo on a mission Trying to get you out my system at times I can't help reminiscing At the end of the day I ain't missing nothing The whole time you was fronting on social media thinking you stunting word on the streets you still out here f****** for drinks and blunts and To be honest you look good gone I'm standing 10 toes down real strong I'm at peace in my life rediscovering myself strengthening my heart and my mental You wanted it this way it could have all been so simple

You left my emotions at the door. Not even looking back. You left this smile I once had into a frown and now I don't even want to turn around, not ever letting you see my face again the back is all you will see on the back end. You hurt my heart and that was just the beginning of this broken heart. You took all of what I had left in me to give, what little I thought I had left in me, pouring it slowly on the floor as I watched!! Why me is all I could say? I thought you felt the same way, but I was wrong and plenty of times you have shown me that the feelings were not mutual and I decided to look the other way. Telling myself to give you a chance you just need time maybe it is me moving too fast. Knowing you would come around once you see all the love I have in me. No!! That hasent happend either wanting to be with you every second, every minute; losing myself in the moment holding on to a feeling that I didn't want to lose, getting blinded by the light of love. Holding you is just the half of it when I speak to you I speak to you like a little story, or like a poet. Because there are things I want to say to you that may flow above your head almost like this. Allow me to be your blanket while the beautiful white snow flows on a cold wintery day, allow me to be your hot chocolate as you drink me I shall warm you from the inside out. Let me be the Dandie lying you smell in the morning while the cool breeze of spring flows through your window. Allow me to keep you cool and be the reason the sweat drops down your body like the AC in the window on a hot summer day. Just allow me to be your Queen as you are my King. But we can't have that, can we? you have broken my heart and left me all alone because you are not ready. You are afraid. You are selfish because you truly don't have a heart. you choose to lie and take other people for granted because you don't even know who you are. So we will say you are lost The end Delleesa Harris 2025