Currently 100~ pages into $100m Offers book by Alex Hormozi. For a few years now I've been wanting to do something entrepreneurial and always struggled to get past certain points. The craziest thing happened yesterday when I was reading around this time in the morning. You know people are capable of making a boat load of money for providing services/value to customers, but you can never really grasp "how" or if it's even possible. The book frames it so clearly and succinctly that it literally, without me actively trying, had me considering not HOW I could potentially be making so much money but how would I even be able to KEEP UP with such demand? Firstly, no I'm not here to monetise you guys 🫶🏻 Building this is a way for me to keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone and to give men something I believe we are lacking a little bit of. Connection and a space to do it. The point I want to get across is it has been YEARS of discontent and being around this type of information loosely, but literally 100 pages into a book and having my mental framework switch from "How is it possible, it can't be" to "How the fuck would I keep up making so much" goes to show the power of consuming the right information. Read more books. Especially the ones you are interested in. Not the ones you see everyone else reading. much love, Krys

I was randomly thinking about this today when I was out with my boy. Don't know where it came from but I thought I'd share... There will always be someone more attractive There will always be someone with more money There will always be "a better opportunity" that will tempt you There will always be someone who dislikes you There will always not be enough time in a day There will NEVER be another you Stop comparing isolated details. Lean into what makes you different. People aren't drawn to or remember ordinary. The people who show up authentically and go against what everyone else says because it's what THEY believe are the ones you remember and look to for guidance. A lot to unpack with this, and I'm sure I'll go into more detail at another time. Main point is you don't have to fit in if you don't want to. There is always people out there that are more similar to you. Don't let the people immediately accessible to you (where you live, grew up, old friends) dictate who you become.

Hey guys. I've been really thinking about how I can provide you guys with the most value for being here. In short, I want to develop a course that would sit in the 'Classroom' tab. It would be a step by step of how to take action towards your goals and ownership of your lives. It would follow the sequencing of... 1. Accepting full responsibility for your current situation 2. Acknowledging where you are at 3. Deciding on what you're interested in 4. Doing what you are interested in without worrying about what others think 5. Stating what it is you are going to do 6. Having a system for getting it done and staying accountable Is this something that you guys would like? It would take me a little bit to get it right and provide the most value but it feels like a very impactful way of helping you guys take agency over your lives. Let me know what you think and be brutally honest. Also, tell me of some of the other challenges you guys are facing in an abstract way so I can think of other courses/resources that could help you all out 🫡 much love, Krys

Reframing the word "goal" to "challenge" as I think it can force more of a growth mindset. Mine for example is to completely leave work. No stepping down or side-stepping. Fully leave the company before my 5 year anniversary (June). This is obviously a goal, but in reality it will be my biggest challenge of the year. I have to view it as a problem to be solved with sequenced steps in order to succeed, rather than a "goal" with no tangibility. Reverse engineer it from the desired outcome and just stick to the process. In reality, I could just get another job, but the challenge is because of the bigger picture. I don't want to work in a conventional working structure my whole life, and life's responsibilities will ramp up even more in the coming years. (little guys gotta get a good education and dad's dreams won't matter so much at that stage). I don't have much time left to take more shots without it potentially pulling time, energy and resources from my family that I would struggle to make back. I genuinely mean it when I say you are all capable of so much more than you give yourselves credit for. I'm sure some of you might look at this as inspiring or courageous or interesting that I'm doing it, giving this whole community thing a go. I'll be honest, I got no clue what I'm doing, BUT.. I'm just leaning into it. I'll figure it out. ______________________________________________________________________________________________________ I'd love if you guys would consider sharing your biggest challenge for the year. It doesn't have to be life changing. But it has to be challenging enough to force you to grow in the process. (There is nothing like the social pressure of telling everyone what you are trying to accomplish to get you started and follow through haha. Case and point–this community) much love, Krys

What frustrates me is not the suggestion of help, but the assumption that my interior complexity must be always be pathologised by mostly my wife and this narrative has been pushed onto my sister. There is a neurosis in how quickly people look for a problem to solve, a diagnosis to apply. That's been happening to me as of late. When you say there is no problem, only life being felt honestly, that seems to be too convenient of a response for my wife, my sister and any one else ready to render a judgement and find complexity in the simple machinations of life. And when you become frustrated by their insistence that something must be wrong, the prophecy from them becomes fulfilled. I resist, and my resistance is not viewed as a degree of assuredness but deflection of self-improvement. Yet, I've helped others out countless of times, but that seems to be forgotten. As if everything good counts for nothing, and the spotlight comes out if I ever become vulnerable or am working something out. I pride myself on change and improvement, so I feel the integrity of my character is under attack when these assertions are made against me. Throughout life I've shown hyper-awareness and emotional attunement to a point where it's probably too much. I was a paid Analyst for 4 years. Yet I found myself at 28 being infantilised by people closest to me. My relationship was honeymooned for probably close to 3 years and then the scales of respect starting tipping almost spontaneously one day and it's been a gradual decline since. I was respected for breathing back in the day, she just looked at me with big eyes of affection, it was so intoxicating and now I feel like I'm dating a mother figure that corrects every three minutes. What's ironic is that I was half the man I am now, back then, I'm all about character development. I don't know what I've done to get here, it's all an accumulation of I guess a few let downs, moments where I missed the opportunity to step up because I've had no one to set any guidance for me. My parents left me to my own devices. I've dealt with and led to solve dysfunctional family dynamics in past with love and affection and yet I get told to go see a psychologist to help with unresolved family traumas. I feel like I have lived a marriage before mine, my parents had involved me in their disputes, and I was quick to mediate. I watched Training Day and 7 Years of Tibet when I was 8, Forrest Gump at 9. You get the vibe. I've seen all the good films, read some great books. I'm not naive to depths of life. But yet, it's Nathan needs therapy. Nathan needs some direction. It's so condescending. I actually hung up on my sister the other day. She asked how I was doing, I replied with pleasantries and then she berated me on the phone like as if whatever I would have said wouldn't have matted because she came into the conversation loaded and ready to go. Back to therapy. To me, it feels so insensitive to listen to a someone intimately for 1 hour and collect 300 dollars and reschedule for another week. Life is just one massive system, clocking and churning, and the fact that the answer to all my problems is to subjugate myself submissively to another worker, another professional, who is also trying to figure out life, it makes my employee #30212 badge beep. Warning. Warning. System fully optimised. I'm aware I'm just a number in this world. Everything is a transaction, so no, I don't need to spend the money on this circle jerk fest, that I could be using to entertain the relationship, have fun dates with, or save but yet reluctantly I will have it appropriated to some psychologist that will say exactly what my other friends have probably mentioned in the past anyway. For context, I've spoken with intelligible people. I once dated a trained psychologist, isn't that fun. I booted up her computer and wrote half of her assignment because she felt uninspired and tired. I'm just like that. I live for this 'learn life' motto, right now my head is buried in philosophy, which happens to be the stem of psychology. But it's never enough right. I have to be acquainted with someone trying to earn a living and scam more money out of me. I'd probably sit there saying saying I can't believe the last of my weekly check is put into this coffee conversation, that I could have any for free, all because wifey seems to think that I need guidance. We all need guidance, it would arrogant to say that we don't. But when you get told this repeatedly, or when you think your 'improving on their terms' only to hear it again, 'be better', you start to lose yourself and then comes the doubt. That aura you had starts to diminish because you were told that it was fading, you almost believe it. Feminising men just isn't the way. After all this time of helping guide others. He'd say yes, interesting, tell me more. Whatever. To me half my life has been a scam, school, university, jobs. Bosses have been malicious. I spend half my life now avoiding people because I'm aware of the patterns. It's like we live in the matrix, where nothing is real or genuine. The last possible avenue I want to take is to seek advice from the very system of concealment and deception I loath. My current workplace is also a joke, keen to leave that. Applying for jobs everyday. I've had friendships feel disingenuous, I've had family feel like a just an assortment or a construct. That's been dysfunctional. I shake my head. I've dealt with superficiality, and for the first time in my life I've seen my past for what it is, I've said enough and I want to life a whole life, not a half life. I'm not falling for all the scams that exist in life. I've out trying to cut a bonsai tree blindfolded, I don't need listen to this noise that people drown me in. I'm keen to go back to a full-time role after taking some time to evaluate life. I left my office role a year ago, because I just felt like an NPC getting on that train heading into Brisbane everyday. Then to walk into work listening to the same diatribe from gutless corporate leaders. Only to come to the realization that I worked for a transformation agency, that didn't even know anything collectively. They were just another leach in the B2B world. My whole day felt like a lie. So I'm at turning point in my life after going down the rabbit hole, thinking about life and going down a deconstruction phase. Ready to start life with meaning, because before I was a body going through motion and now I feel like I've orientated my soul. It's taken some sacrifice, like working a casual job to author a journal I want to publish. The journal is about the future of industry with new technology. Building that identity is something that I've always wanted to do. But I think that move has been misconstrued by people who treat judging like a sport to be played, they think that I've run away from my old life, but in fact, I've been working hard to generate a new one. So its absolutely crushing to convey your passions, then for sometime close to you say that's awesome sweetheart, I think that magazine/journal your building is just a hobby not something that will do anything for your career. When in fact, I've had old colleagues tell me, keep going, this will pay off. You can earn some great strategy roles with a profile like that. Resumes will be obsolete in a year, AI is wrecking that. So to do this, to create this profile in my line of work is to think ahead. Yet I'm criticised. One day she came home, said she spoke to someone down the road talking about something new, she was animated about it, came home she said she just had this interesting conversation with one of the neighbours down the road. I turned around and said, yeah I told the neighbour about it. She looked at me and said oh right. I say, in fact, I think I mentioned this to you before. She said oh yeah, I must have missed it. What is it that makes you feel so unseen, is it living with someone for years being seen everyday. Is that what happens. I want to be the guy down the road, telling the interesting story and being heard. I'm just the guy, waiting at home, waiting to hear the news because I stopped being the news. I stopped being the interesting guy. I'm just Nathan. I'm aware that dialogue has touched on a few people, but honestly it's all fine. I just had a feeling when I hit this threat, it comes and goes. That feeling that you might not be respected, but she says it's all in my head, like I live on Shutter Island. That I'm loved. My wife is a beautiful person, I'm genuinely not afraid to die, I would save her life, if it meant I had to go. I've grown up so fast, I've done it all on my own. Sometimes, I just want to hear, 'yeah you got there yourself.' I'm streaming Idols by Yungblud on repeat, I have a new haircut, I'm hitting the gym. Hello, Heaven, Hello. I just want to live an unadulterated explosion of happiness. I can't waste another minute anymore. Time is too precious. Ready for the next step. New job next hopefully. Hoping to finish my professional magazine/journal this month so I can step into a career rather than a job, which is a professional first. I want to build a brand independent of a job, so I can retain credibility. A brand that hosts meaning, none of this hollow marketing that is the corporate world. I want to lead my life. I don't want to be victimised by it. In terms of agency to continue posting, not sure that I will. I feel like I've done plenty of inner thinking, healing and at this stage in my life I feel like I have a good sense of orientation, I just want to execute on it. My thinking befits the style and heart of this blog, but I'm like a dark knight, I ride alone. Content to sit the shadows, how else can you know what the light is. Love, Nathan