I have 3 more days to study for my FNP board exam. I failed it last year. And it has taken me almost a year to do it again. My practice scores are below passing but consistently that way. My brain feels done, my body has been done and I push it anyway. I know I can simply retake this exam. The world does not end, but the state of anxiety and stress then stay continuous and it’s not one that is healthy for me to be in. My body can’t handle this much longer and I want to be done. I am not a quitter in anything. I feel defeated, I feel drained, I feel honestly like I’ve lost brain cells and somehow got dumber in this process. I don’t understand anything in my life right now. Or how to motivate myself to do this again, and at 44 yo my family relies on me to pass this exam so I can get a job. I want to cry, scream and curl in a ball all at once. I am so exhausted, my body never rests. I just want this to be over with. Please give me strength to fight through this.