Hi everyone, I started off honestly being very anti-God for so long due to my family who were tradtional Catholics but very hypercritical. I blamed the Lord for my childhood trauma and my grandfather passing away. I thought He hated me so I turned deeper into the world for comfort and a coping mechanism. When I was in the dark thats when I found the Lord, ive been feeling so unworthy of His grace and mercy. I struggle to take a step towards the narrow gate, because im afraid to let go of my habits because it was the only sort of comfort I had to escape or feel anything else then pain. Putting my faith in Jesus Christ is like stepping towards the edge of a cliff. If anyone else at this point or have taken the plunge?