Hey Y'all, happy Sunday 🥰 I'm coming here today to talk about food fear, the healing process regarding food, and the toxic programs I often see people (myself included) get stuck in during the healing process. Yesterday I posted a photo of a Honeydew milk tea I had from a local boba place. If you know me, you know boba is a new favorite of mine & although I don't consider this a "healing food" I have 0 issues drinking things like this for fun, to enjoy my life. As a society, we create emotional connections with other people and with ourselves through food. Whether that be a family meal cultivating connection and togetherness, or something we eat to feel good, just to enjoy it. Over the years, I thought that connection was not important. I actually bypassed that connection completely because I was using food as a tool to heal myself, so I no longer cared about eating thanksgiving dinner with my family, for example... during the height of my chronic illness, I juice fasted 3 thanksgivings in a row. Why? To prove to myself that I could #1, stay committed to what I was trying to do for myself & #2, overcome my emotional connections toward food and reframe my "family time & connection" to not include food at all... unless of course, someone else in my family was juice fasting or eating clean with me... then we would bond over that. This is problematic for me now, but I'll get to that. Back to my Honeydew Milk Tea :D After I posted that, I had a TON of people ask me about: - sugar content - is there food dye - is there corn syrup - what kind of milk was used - if this is a healthy option while healing - how can you even stand to drink things like this without knowing all the details All valid questions for sure, and these are things I would have asked too, if I were still in the mindset of food being the #1 thing that heals & if I was still struggling with food sensitvities. Throughout the first 5 years of my healing journey with interstitial cystitis, I used food as my main source of healing power. Water fasting, juice fasting, all fruit diet for months, intentional periods of eating raw vegan etc.