Hi Kelsey! I’m so happy for you about the income for Chris and you that yall willl be receiving!!!!!! That is HUGE like you said!!! I feel it that you haven’t impacted the women you are meant to yet, it’s a growing and gradual thing it seems!! It is coming!! You are making the efforts everyday and I see you and I support you and love it about you!! You deserve all the support in the world naturally but also with all the support you have given me and others you are always going from the heart and I truly love and admire that about you and I am doing the same now!! It is so inspiring and motivating and I’m sooo happy we know each other and get to connect on such a regular basis!!! I am very fortunate and lucky to have you. Just finished faith practice study for the morning daimoku and gongyo and I’m feeling like pouring into you afterwards! Anyway, you are amazingggggg I love you! 🫂💓🫂💓🫂💓🫂💓🫂🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽✨✨✨✨✨✨

I miss you too! Aww, I am hugging you from you 🤗 I would love to get on a weekly online call to connect and bond, it is much needed 💓🙌🏽 I will join online next Sunday between 2-5 if that’s an option ✨ What’s been on my heart is colonialism, racism, sexism, abuse, oppression, isolation, loneliness, depression, insecurity, betrayal I’m sad because of all of that BUT What’s also been on my heart is friendship, community, love, connection, courage, effort, meaning, purpose, and fulfillment I know I need to continue therapy and chanting, plus journaling, learning, and connecting with other safe loving and like minded humans When nothing is happening, those in between resting moments of doing all the things, I want to be okay with that. The silence, the quiet, the solitude. I want to be okay with just existing I am healing from a toxic attachment to a friend /past lover currently I miss and want my family What’s on your heart?

@Kelsey Colleen I’ll be at work but I wish I could make it!

@Kelsey Colleen of course I’m always here, we’re in it for life girl! that’s so amazing that you are hanging in there and moving along you go girl! You are so strong and incredible and wonderful human!!! You deserve the world 🌍 💕✨🙏🏽

@Kelsey Colleen you deserve the world as well!!! I love you too!!!!

@Kelsey Colleen hi Kelsey, thank you so much for your full integrated loving heartfelt thoughtful response. I’m really thankful to have you, I always feel like I matter and what I say and feel matters when you respond. A lot of the time I feel bored and underestimated and unloved since I don’t have money to hang out with people and I don’t have my family. So this means a lot to hear from you as often and as much of what you say as I do. I will need to work on mothering my little Keanna, sometimes it feels uncomfortable or like it’s not working, and like I want my actual mom to do it, but I know we’re all adults and we have to do it ourselves a lot of the time Thank you for being proud of me and acknowledging my thoughts and feelings once again. I’m looking forward to seeing you and everyone in person and laughing and playing and loving and having fun together. That’s really what life is about after all. Being alone is just not it I love you too!!!! I got connected to Aurora Nichiren Buddhism and to a member, we are going to the center on Sunday at 10a to chant and I am presenting at the district meeting on the 24th I would really like to receive my gohonzon and alter and materials. I lost my beads :( and carrier :( last year when I was moving around a lot again. I need to get the monthly subscription gohonzon beads carrier and some books, just waiting on the money to come in to do so. I am searching and I just want to be grounded in practices and beliefs I’m kind of annoyed that my friend who is Christian is trying to convince me to believe and practice Christianity to be completely honest. I’m not sure what to say to her to have her stop. Maybe I have to ask her directly but I want to do it in a loving and kind way. I’ve explained I am exploring and learning and it feels like she just keeps pushing it onto me, trying to get me to do it. Idk, I feel it’s appropriate to share that in this community because I need to support and guidance and help but I’m sure I can figure it out myself too. And i am not speaking badly about Christianity it’s just not what I want to do. I guess it’s on me because I don’t have full commitment to any one spirituality or religion. I do commit to meditation and journaling and dancing and art. And I would like to fully commit to more spirituality and religion but it’s hard to choose just one when so much exists and is and could be true

@Kelsey Colleen this is incredible I am so happy for you and your practice and dedication with chanting and Buddhism I saw you writing your experience on your Instagram crying and feeling all of your emotions and thinking all your thoughts You are also truly an inspiration and a ball of love and joy I really appreciate everything you said in your message you are right, I have 1 journal so far that I am adding to my collection to give to my kids , to then give to my grandkids , and so on and so forth , been thinking about that a lot recently with intention , I want them to know my life thoughts feelings wisdom emotions imperfections growth healing efforts and transformation. Thank you for your sympathy about my mother figure situation, everyday I am feeling more like a woman and someone who is parenting myself, I will be 33 this year, I’m in the energy to emotionally heal and mature I’m so happy for you that you have healed a lot about your dad abandoning you all, I know the practice helps and heals and changes the karma , I believe it and that is so beautiful I would loveeeeee to chant with you, yes please, just say the word! Yes you are right about people having compassion to want the best for us, I am full of love and gratitude for my friend and know the insight of the magic and care she expresses through her own beliefs , they will never keep us divided , we are always together and one no matter what