(a note from last Friday) I feel stressed, angry and overwhelmed today. I felt like this yesterday too. I knew my anger would intensify today. I have felt like this before. It comes from somewhere I know. I know the pattern. I am angry at myself. Again. It's my reaction when I don't do what I tell myself I would do. It comes from my impatience. What I want to happen is not happening as quickly as I want it to. Sometimes, like today, the impatience takes over. I hated how I felt. Because it was my own doing. I never want to put myself in that situation again. My anger is real. Anger becomes overwhelm. Demotivation and procrastination see an opening and barge in. Before I knew it, the day flew by. This might drag on for days. The longer it stays, the more miserable I feel. I don't want that. I hate that. "I want my anger to be healthy. And I need my anger not to control." - From the song St. Anger by Metallica Good things, worthy things, take time. That is how it works. I know that. I know that before it gets easier, it'll get worse. I know that before it moves fast, it will be slow. Yes, I am talking about what Jim Collins calls The Flywheel Effect. The Flywheel Effect is real. It takes a lot of effort to get the wheel to move a little. Day after day. It will take a while to see progress. It will take a while for the flywheel to move faster. I am not complaining. I am observing. Progress is hard. This is what hard feels like. I have felt like this before. And I've learned what to do about it. Getting things done makes me happy. I am a much better version of myself when I focus on progress, not perfection. My anger is healthy. Even though it didn't use to be. I have found my workaround process. - First step: simplify to clarify. - Clarity lets me focus on progress. - Focus leads to confidence to act. - Doing creates results. - Repetition builds momentum. - Momentum pushes the flywheel harder and harder. - The flywheel turns faster and faster. I could do it because I was not alone.