This is a question I get a lotâand one I wrestled with during my latest ultramarathon. Why put myself through so much unnecessary struggle? I battle with this both on and off the trail. Itâs not an easy question to answer because there is no correct one. Iâm still uncertain why anyone would be so insane as to put themselves through such a harsh physical event, often leading to injuries and months of recovery. However, Iâve come to learn a few things. The experience on the trails cannot be bought. No amount of money can run 100 miles for you, and it certainly canât push you through the adversity youâll face along the way. When you find yourself 80+ miles into a 100-mile endurance event, thereâs nothing and no one that can put you in that position except you. Itâs the hardest yet most straightforward physical challenge there isâmove your body to the 100-mile mark, or donât. So imagine this: you set out, months or even years in advance, with the simple and terrifying goal of finishing a 100-mile ultramarathon. You train relentlessly, prepare mentally, and do everything in your power to be your best on race day. You toe the line, filled with nerves, and the race begins. Youâve practiced your pacing, nutrition, and have run hundredsâmaybe thousandsâof miles. The nerves soon fade, as they always do once you start moving. Then, youâre at war. You climb mountains, descend into valleys, and push through uneven terrain and mud. Every aid station feels like a breath of fresh airâyou pop out of the wilderness to refuel, only to head back in moments later. Through the hours of wear on your body, you face adversity after adversity (itâs just going to happen). Your feet blister, your body aches and cramps, and your stomach turns. Even more challenging, your mind begins to doubt. You questionâwhy? Why run 100 miles? You still havenât found an answer, but you continue. You find yourself 80 miles in, moving slower than you have all race. The sun has been down for hours, and youâre at your lowest. You ask yourself again: why? Your original reasons vanished long ago. Thereâs no âwhyâ anymoreâjust you and the shell of your body.