The reminded Binded with aggressive regret Ascends me into a blackened void Where thoughts of family and pastimes are the only essence of anything tangible Engaged by violent fantasies Enraged by a disturbing history Mysticism envelopes Revengeful imagery is blended with regretful disassociation Integrated dishonesty allows you to maneuver The wildest highs and the tamest lows A smile soaked in brine A huge yellow chime Lying within the divine Easily identified by the weakest of links When would it be convenient for you and I to drink? Pretentiousness oozes from your unoriginal lexicon Proof that you're not always right Perhaps more often than not wrong An endless radio song Besides the abundance of positive energy The incessant negativity forces you to violently regurgitate The never ending excuses that induce your imagined psychic embrace And your shallow mind convinces you that you can experience the sensation that causes you to salivate But, under duress You feel compelled to open your eyes To the once villainous smile To where she thought you'd be content to hide Hiding from the pain The pain of a hundred thousand hours of a regrettable existence Mismatched relationships Endangered commitments

Inside the mind of an outsider Outside, the eyes of a stranger believing what they think is what they see Via an intimate reality, realized in a fanatical obsessive dream But in the realest of realities, the individual is nothing like the dream dreamt Bent and tortured Metamorphoses, androgyny, anthropogenesis Or what one makes of it, it’s a perfect mess The brain of the beholder, is too quick to judge Before biting into the edge of the long acquiring grudge To find out that it was only fudge and not LOVE To consider that your idea of how things should be are NOTHING at all The fall into the fallen world The hole that lies just beneath all of us Succumbed to Irrespective of the channel chosen Frozen inside your child-like frenzied mind frame Being blamed for someone else’s name Or feeling like it’s them that has changed Inside all day all day Outside I never dared to stray Only turning up the volume in my mind Instead of disguising my own eyes Leading the blinded disguised eyes into their potentially dangerous lives

The complete death of meaning I embrace it Let me burn Always feel so worthless And I have a lot to learn At least I’ve suffered worst Than what I lately feel I am not a part of life I’m not even real I cannot think I’m on the brink I’ve been damaging myself And she left me alone and broken Cause she loved somebody else Why the hell do I keep lusting? This is the newest dishonor Since I’m not good But understood I’m not a total goner Torture strikes like never before Can’t take this any longer!! I do the things that I abhor Will this make me stronger? There’s Hell on earth I’ve lived it since birth I only want to be free Seduction without production Sensitivity reduction And peace came out from three

It turned me on, Juan said “Hey, need a stripper?” Bro, my hands are fucking cold! Wells Lamont Gripper Went out without a jacket… Barbara said I was insane But naked in the cold is nothing In light of all the pain I miss being intellectual Now I'm weak and dumb I couldn't even feel the pain Cause torture made me numb Can't wait till I'm awake For the first time become real Then I'll start to preach the Word & cast out demons while I heal I beat everyone I played at chess Can't have pride when I'm distressed Beat so low I couldn't know All wrongs will be confessed We banged so hard. “My dick is yours.” All the time last night Devils came, im always lame Didn't even put up a fight God repeats “There is no purpose” Soon I'll understand It's way to heavy, I wasn't ready Hell yeah! My fifty grand 🤑🤑

Ignorance magnified: I won't pretend I was never buff I was more brains than brawn Outsmarted all the other guys Yet still blind to the ways I was wrong I clung to her for safety And Mary comforted me Yet in the end I was more broken She shouldn't have seen what I let her see I helped her kill her soul And she thought that it was cute Never give the body When the soul is kept on mute I must not ever let that die I refuse to be a brute Desperate for relief First talk when chemistry aligned Minecraft days; on spleef I was neither dead nor alive My brain is always buzzing But when I choose to turn it off Safety lands and I'll withstand while cooking stroganoff