Search me O God. What a powerful and vulnerable state to be in. One place that I always find myself back at is realizing I don’t Jesus like people think I do. This is always challenging to me, because it forces me to deal with areas where there is disbelief. I recently learned that at the room of sin is disbelief. We trade in the truth for a lie. Whether it be something we consider small or big, it still all comes from believe that our way is better than His in that moment. One area that I want God to deal with me putting in the work to fulfill the Great commission rather than just looking the part.

Dominion was one of the first things the guy who led me to Christ discussed with me. He reminded me that as a man, especially a man in Christ I had the power to set the tone and culture for the things around me. Such a simple teaching but powerful encouragement of truth for me. One emotion that often goes unchecked for me is feeling the need to surrender to the idea of being overwhelmed. I do believe that we all need to make sure that we guarding our time, taking care of ourselves, but in the same breath we should also dare to be great. With being great some days you will be tired, overwhelmed, and at your whits end. I think that if you let that emotion take over, you ingrain into your fabric as a man. You’ll always feel tired, overwhelmed, and on your last leg. Rather I had to realize sometimes the extra task I needed to do that got me from good to great were often just spending an extra 15 to 30 mins consistently to whatever the task or endeavor at that moment. When I get things done, my family tends to get things done. If I’m lazy then the house is lazy…

My name is Demetrius Holmes I’m extremely excited to be able to be apart of the team & I'm willing to take the time out & really get into this community (Thanks to Mr.Brooks for the invite in)🙏🏽.

What a great read today. I think that an area where I am operating in a manner of trying to be someone else is my place of work. I’m always surrounded by individuals who have a higher ranking in positions, a higher degree, more research, more publications, more everything since I am still junior faculty with not nearly as much hardware as the rise. Remembering that I am made in His image gives me the confidence that I am right where I need to be, and the more that I find him, I find myself.

Allowing God to be the Lord of my life has been easier said than done. There has always been places were I’ve tried to follow my plan to fidelity without really consulting about it at all. I feel like each time I start, it starts well, but gets to it point where I know I’m doomed to fail without him. Today, while sending over an invoice to a potential client I noticed that I was getting anxious whether this would ultimately turn into a paid invoice or just another space where I did a lot of leg work and ultimately not equally a client. Trying to figure out did I do everything right, was my communication clear, did I gave them the best possible price without putting myself in the hole? While thinking through all that, not one time did I just stop to talk to God. I know that God should lead in every area of our life. Even our businesses. Sometimes it’s hard to see God as business partner, but I know that He can bless anything that he wishes. I throughly enjoyed today’s devotion.