I just want everyone here to know you can change your lifestyle if you want to bad enough; but it's almost impossible to do it alone. Being here was a beautiful start to my ability to change my habits. It's even more important now that I am retired. I was able to use my job as a deterrent to at least postpone my drinking until I got off work. Now I don't have that 'crutch' and could start drinking as soon as I wanted, which I did quite often. I think my 'aha' moment was when I was watching an episode of Cops and a man was detained for disorderly conduct. The officer asked him if he had been drinking and he responded with "Of course, what else am I gonna do? I'm retired." I am not going to be that guy !!