I was just laying down and my tooth started hurting bad and my mind keep telling me go read your Bible I listened and read james chp 2-5 and my tooth just call all the way down

Hi family, I need advice because I don’t have anyone to talk to, not family nor friends, so I’m just writing. Right now, I thinking about going back into the world, and being my old self, which is me being in control of my future and closed off to everyone. I am 17, working two jobs after graduating HS while completing college, and I’m off to college next month, and I feel like my mental, spiritual, and emotional health is rapidly declining because of too much complaining that comes from my family. At my medical internship, I feel like I’m always doing something wrong. I hate to be the only person to pursue God because my dad came from a family that were “Christians”, so he’s always talking about his problems to me and he always rely on me to do the praying, anointing the house, talking about others and keep saying “that spirit this” or “monitoring spirit that”, and it’s tiring. With all this plus more, I am always maladaptive daydreaming or fantasizing about my life, including lustful thoughts, because it’s my escape. I can’t go to God because I know the consequences of my iniquities can hinder my prayers to Him. I don’t want to give up on God even though I am at a breaking point because He’s done so much for me, but also, I feel myself drifting each day, if not, I’m already drifted away because of my increasing resentment toward my family.

Hi everyone. My name is Milanie. 🤍 I wanted to introduce myself and ask for your prayers. I’ve never been baptized, but it’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. I’ve been praying and asking God to lead me to a Bible-teaching church where I can continue growing in His Word. I believe He has opened that door because I found a church only about 15 minutes from my home. I’m preparing to call them and have even been looking at baptism robes for me and my two children. I’m really excited about taking this next step in my walk with Christ. Right now, I’m on day two of a three-day fast from 7:00 AM to 7:00 PM. During this fast, I’ve been reading the book of Matthew, praying, studying Scriptures I don’t understand, and spending intentional time with the Lord. I even wrote Him a letter, pouring out my heart and asking Him to heal the broken places inside of me. I have to be honest though. I don’t feel like I’ve heard God speak to me yet. Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing something wrong. I keep seeking Him because His Word says, “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find.” So I’m continuing to seek Him. I’m also a single mom of two beautiful children. My son has Type 1 diabetes, and my daughter was born extremely premature. She’s four years old now and is still catching up developmentally. They keep me very busy. Last night I was up late working on my business, so I accidentally overslept this morning. I still prayed before my fast, I still completed my fast, and I still made time to read God’s Word because I truly want to know Him more. My heart has been through a lot. I’ve experienced a lot of heartbreak from my children’s father, and I’m asking God to heal every broken place in me. I don’t want to carry pain into my future. I want to become the woman God has called me to be. My family is very dysfunctional, and that has been difficult. There is a lot of conflict, and I’ve had to create healthy boundaries. I still pray for every one of them, and I ask God to bless them. My desire isn’t to be better than anyone. My desire is simply to do things differently and allow God to break the generational cycles in my family through me.