We lost power for a few hours. So I took it as a reason to go sit outside. I meditated and kept seeing a blue sky with white clouds, cirrus ones. It was like that for a bit and then it changed to storm clouds and repeated a few times.

Do you have a shop you could spend the entire day in?

While driving to my petsitting job yesterday I realized I get a lot of my “downloads” while driving. I don’t drive much anymore, never really liked to drive. You know how I’ve been feeling kind of disconnected lately and I don’t really see signs? Yeah, I’ve been compartmented for my own protection. I’m not sure if I did or they did or helped me to. I used to have a lot of emotional problems in school, especially, with other people’s feelings and emotions overwhelming me. I was told it was protecting me. It helped me to become a LVT (licensed veterinary technician) and able to help the animals without getting overwhelmed too. They told me the it’s kind of like Poe’s “The Cask of Amontillado”. I’m walled in, so they have to try extra hard to get through. I need to keep practicing and also taking care of myself to remove bricks. It’s going to be slow going, so I need to have patience.

Last day of Petsitting the kitties. I could not sleep last night, finally fell asleep at 6:30 this morning. Means I got a late start, but it also means if the owners get delayed it’s not a big deal. What do I need to work on today? Queen of Bones (Swords). I need to continue to work on my boundaries- use my head not my heart to make decisions. But don’t totally shut down using my intuition, be open. I’m thinking this is about me connecting with my dad. (S)he was a little narcissistic- but still loved me very much. I’m sure a lot of the problems was more from the way she grew up (born 1948) and was sent to be “converted” when she was 12. She didn’t come out as trans until my sister and I were married and out of the house. I think I’m being told to be careful listening to him. When doing the Psychic Week my guides told me I wasn’t ready yet and only recently let me feel him.

I thought I’d use a beautiful deck that I love for today’s card pull on my birthday (included a pic of the box in case anyone was curious). The general question was: what’s the message for today? Beautiful full moon in the Ace of Cups showing me the fullness of possibility of overflowing love, creativity, joy, as long as I stay open and receptive 🌝🌕 (please note that I am learning as I go and I have a couple books to help me learn the cards. I try to sit with them first and intuit my own sense from them, and then I look at the books).