I fight doubt at this moment and many more addictions i said i would stop doing, i feel like my old self is coming back and i want to avoid that and grow with God. Can someone help me on how to create a new me?

Today is a day to be happy since our savior has rose from the dead. Happy Easter !

I really need help, every single day and week I give up to lust and I repent and I ask god for mercy but I feel that repent is not enough and I also feel that god is just looking at me and he is disappointed even though i know that is not happening. Someone help I can't get out I tried everything