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As I mentioned in a previous post, spending 30 years of continuous combat as an elite special op warrior took a horrible toll on me. When I retired, I lost my men, my mission & my purpose...my body, mind & soul were ravaged. Plant medicines have given me my existence back, but I still struggle daily with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and the symptoms from multiple Traumatic Brain Injuries. I'm very skilled at compartmentalization, & I am a rather stoic person so most people have no idea of the battles I fight daily.
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Hello, all! Here's a little bit about me and my personal experience with the sacred medicines... I lost my husband Lee, partner of 32 years, suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack on Oct. 27, 2019. This resulted in extreme grief which led to depression and an attempt to unalive myself on Nov. 20th of that year. When I crossed over and had a brief near death experience, NDE, I was brought back by the doctors, actually twice. Being home was beautiful, and I was very upset that my experience was interrupted and initially resented being brought back through the veil and I wasn't quite ready to accept my return to the grief that led to my decision to leave this plane. After a couple nights in the Emergency Room and a few days in a Psych Ward, I went on a mission to find a way to receive answers and understanding. One month later, in December of 2019, I was called to a sacred medicine ceremony (Bufo) that returned me back through the veil home and provided me the same unconditional love I experienced in my NDE, but without interruption and with the ability to return and begin integrating the experience while allowing healing to begin. As I mentioned, I was called by and to the sacred medicine Bufo Alvarius (5-MeO-DMT). Here's a link to a video I made discussing this - https://youtu.be/8IsPC5rtn0s?si=rQ759EZofntorZzZ Here's a link to the video in which I share the Sacred Ceremony experience - https://youtu.be/H4QlEQkku0g?si=edtolfTO5zeK3z6B In and through this experience I became aware of the oneness of everything! I came to understand the Divine Agreement Lee and I made to journey this life together... and for him to leave before me. It's a painfully beautiful gift of growth in Love! All is perfect. Even my attempt to unalive myself was perfect. It was and is all part of our contract. I came to understand that everything that ever was, that is and that will ever be, all exists in the eternal Now. I went home, I remembered. I remembered that I actually never left. I am journeying through the matrix and experiencing this illusion we call life. All that is truly real is Love! Love is what we are... and now we are called to remember...
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Thank you for your willingness to be vulnerable & share your story. I'm sorry for your loss & the struggles you have endured, but I'm glad it led you here. I spent 30+ in sustained combat with special operations. That long on the "tip of the spear" left my body, mind & soul ravaged. Retirement brought me the loss of my men, my mission & my purpose...and a nasty divorce. In 2018...my darkest moment...I had a plan & place to take my own life. A combat buddy invited me to Orlando for an Ayahuasca retreat...it quite literally saved my life. I have been very actively involved with entheogens since (medical support, sitter integrations circles, etc.) and now I am trying to pay it forward by making these sacred medicines available to Veterans & First Responders. Hopefully the knowledge & connections I make here will add more legitimacy to my efforts & facilitate additional certifications...specifically in facilitation, integration & psychedelic counseling.
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@Kelly Allen Likewise!
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You touched on an analogy I use often: psychedelics only open the door. The journeyer must walk through the doorway...and a skilled integration coach will walk you through it.
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1 like • 23h
My continual mantra that I use in my ordinary life, and when I sit with the medicine(s) is: "Be patient, be positive, don't judge"
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Kerby, thank you for welcoming me into the fold...I'm extremely happy to be here
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Jeremy Hardy
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Retired special ops & Military Contractor. Now a Therapist, & doctorate student (Psychology). Have worked w/ entheogens since 2018

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